big night

Tonight is a big part of our install. We need yo get all this shit done tonight. I wanted to go to a meeting today however rest is more important for now. I was tossing and turning all today tring to get aome sleep. I don't sleep in the daytime so it is unusal for me. Thank god for blackberry for posting. My mother inlaw is suppose to come over to the project site tonight. If I was still drinking there wouldn't be a reason for her to want to see me. Thanks to the program I am sober today.

life

I have been working on this project in New Jersey. Through the snow and dipping tempertures. I have not had more than a few hours sleep in 3 days. I am exhausted. Only a few more days left. My wife quit her job to home school my son. He has anxiety and night terrors. As a parent this son is pushing my sanity.

no baseball

My son didn't make the baseball team. He has been in the dumps for days now. I have been trying to comfort him. The coaches are a bunch of ignorant assholes. this really sucks.

no meeting

My wife was pissed so I didn't go to the meeting tonight. She had to go grocery shopping and needed help putting the boys to bed. I felt bad because I promised the kid I would take him. I am screwed either way and I have to protect my own sobriety, but I took him to starbucks for a 30 minute talk. I hope that will be good enough to keep him from using tonight. I watched him get in a car with a chic and some dude and drive away. This was the first time I felt like I cared about him.. How strange this feeling was. It was almost as if one of my boys got in that car..

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friday

I spent all of today down at one of our vendors plant in mexico. I am so glad I am a US citizen. I just couldn't make it living in those impoverished conditions. The rate of kidnappings has gone up for US citizens at an alarming rate. They grab you and then your released through negotiators at some ransom price. The cops are in on the deal as well. Great for the tourism board of mexico.

My son's baseball tryouts are tomorrow and I think he is almost there on being prepared. It all depends on his mindset during tryouts. I will be happy either way because I know he is a good kid and good enough to make it regardless of the outcome. The fact that my son trusts me enough to help him achieve his goal is an example of the promises in the big book. Which I get to see as long as I stay sober.

O'DONNELL DENIES SHE IS AN ALCOHOLIC

American comedienne ROSIE O'DONNELL has denied rumours she is an alcoholic, insisting she chose to give up booze because she is desperate to lose weight. the story contractmusic.com

Rosie, denial is part of the disease sister.

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I am glad to be sober even though my life seems to be a roller coaster ride. I really want things to settle down with my home life and work. We are having issues with my middle son and his attitude and disrespect are taxing to my mind and health. My job is more demanding and the traveling unending. All I do is pray and go to meetings hoping for some peace.

More concern about alcoholic energy drinks

Rez-Mart and the Nisqually Shell station were two of 16 stores busted for selling alcoholic beverages to minors. In these cases, the minors bought drinks called "Tilt," a malt liquor with caffeine without showing any identification. story

Am I missing something.. When did energy drinks start containing alcohol??

fat kills Alcoholic

An alcoholic who suffered epileptic fits when he withdrew from alcohol was found dead at the bottom of his stairs, an inquest heard. link to story

Giants

Go Giants.. Thats my father in law JOE...Go Joe Go Giants.

back home

New Jersey was a night and on top of it I have the flu. The project went great but I have only had 5 hours sleep..

the kid is pissing me off by almost becoming a royal pain in the ass. I keep getting a flood of text messages and he is always at the wrong time for me to talk..Shit when I started working with my sponsor I kept it short. I did what I was suppose to and that is meetings.