seattle

Back on the rode again.. sung by one of Houstons greats. I am going to catch a meeting with god up there.

lost kid

The kid I was talking to about the program is now on the streets for 3 weeks. We have been communicating through text messages. I am keeping the contact open with him as much as possible. For some reason I have that song by Glenn Campbell "oh Galveston" stuck in my head.

off ramp

I can't sleep for some reason tonight. Maybe it was to many diet sodas. I need to find an off ramp to my bed

ipod

see if they pull this one off again..I love my ipod.. sober and proud of it.

home

Wow I am glad to be home. Traveling takes it's toll on your body.. Houston was a great trip.

houston blogheads rock

yeehAw, yeehaw.. an unforgettable experience gracias..

Happy Easter

Happy Easter everyone with one exception "Micky".. go play with a stingray.

no games

Today there is no little league games because of Easter. I am glad of that because I have a shit load of things to do around the house. I also have get in contact with the Houston crew as well. The kid who I was helping just got kicked out his house for stealing money. He ended up using the money to go drinking and drugging. He is living with a drug dealer. What now?? I have to get with my sponsor..

Houston is any one there

Yes I am headed to Houston next week.. That is part of my territory now. I have to hire a rep there as well as see accounts. Hope to run into the Houston clan..

transexual Micky

As you know our transsexual friend Micky reads scripture by day and a sucks on dicks by night. His first head job was to satan.

sick micky

Our satanic friend mickey is in a good place, a mental ward. This is the newest photo of the Australian dumbass. This will be the last post I make of this wacko. I am good however a little tired..

body buider finals

I went to a body buildering final today. Wow, there were a lot of big dudes and a lot of little dudes that wanted to be big. A friend of ours was in the competition and she rocks for a 35 year old. The women looked hot buffed out and most of them would have kicked my ass. I probably would have never gone to this kind of event if I was still drinking.

back Homr

Every one was fight when I came last night I gave mt brother my shot gun to my brother while I was drinking and now all I have are seels,

Venice in Denver?

Me and MC ate at this restaurant tonight AND IT SUCKED. MC is so cool, we had a blast. What will be our next adventure? She is a good friend and thats all the counts. Thanks MC. My next city is Houston so hopefully I can see all the lamda gang..

denver

My next next stop is denver on my whirl wind tour of my territory. I have been busting my ass on several different projects which equated to having several jobs and being paid for one. This required little sleep and I am over that shit now. Life isn't easy being the bread winner and having an addiction. I have to add meetings to my schedule however there is little time. When I get home from work my kids and wife demand my attention. I am going to my home group meeting tonight.. I hope to see MC Tuesday night.

life

My whole deal with working from 9pm till 8 am for a week on this project made it difficult, because I never sleep during the day. However I had no choice as I began to pass out. The whole ordeal has been a little reminder of how I chased that buzz on a daily basis for so many years. I don't ever want to drink again and having a God and the program helps me make that possible.

I pod

I got the new I pod and love it. I caught up on all the episodes of lost.. That is my favorite tv show..

back from hell

I am finally back home from a project that was a bitch to complete. I had everything against me on this job and weather was one of them. I am sober and happy to be so. I couldn't have completed this while drinking.

big night

Tonight is a big part of our install. We need yo get all this shit done tonight. I wanted to go to a meeting today however rest is more important for now. I was tossing and turning all today tring to get aome sleep. I don't sleep in the daytime so it is unusal for me. Thank god for blackberry for posting. My mother inlaw is suppose to come over to the project site tonight. If I was still drinking there wouldn't be a reason for her to want to see me. Thanks to the program I am sober today.

life

I have been working on this project in New Jersey. Through the snow and dipping tempertures. I have not had more than a few hours sleep in 3 days. I am exhausted. Only a few more days left. My wife quit her job to home school my son. He has anxiety and night terrors. As a parent this son is pushing my sanity.

no baseball

My son didn't make the baseball team. He has been in the dumps for days now. I have been trying to comfort him. The coaches are a bunch of ignorant assholes. this really sucks.

no meeting

My wife was pissed so I didn't go to the meeting tonight. She had to go grocery shopping and needed help putting the boys to bed. I felt bad because I promised the kid I would take him. I am screwed either way and I have to protect my own sobriety, but I took him to starbucks for a 30 minute talk. I hope that will be good enough to keep him from using tonight. I watched him get in a car with a chic and some dude and drive away. This was the first time I felt like I cared about him.. How strange this feeling was. It was almost as if one of my boys got in that car..

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friday

I spent all of today down at one of our vendors plant in mexico. I am so glad I am a US citizen. I just couldn't make it living in those impoverished conditions. The rate of kidnappings has gone up for US citizens at an alarming rate. They grab you and then your released through negotiators at some ransom price. The cops are in on the deal as well. Great for the tourism board of mexico.

My son's baseball tryouts are tomorrow and I think he is almost there on being prepared. It all depends on his mindset during tryouts. I will be happy either way because I know he is a good kid and good enough to make it regardless of the outcome. The fact that my son trusts me enough to help him achieve his goal is an example of the promises in the big book. Which I get to see as long as I stay sober.

O'DONNELL DENIES SHE IS AN ALCOHOLIC

American comedienne ROSIE O'DONNELL has denied rumours she is an alcoholic, insisting she chose to give up booze because she is desperate to lose weight. the story contractmusic.com

Rosie, denial is part of the disease sister.

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I am glad to be sober even though my life seems to be a roller coaster ride. I really want things to settle down with my home life and work. We are having issues with my middle son and his attitude and disrespect are taxing to my mind and health. My job is more demanding and the traveling unending. All I do is pray and go to meetings hoping for some peace.

More concern about alcoholic energy drinks

Rez-Mart and the Nisqually Shell station were two of 16 stores busted for selling alcoholic beverages to minors. In these cases, the minors bought drinks called "Tilt," a malt liquor with caffeine without showing any identification. story

Am I missing something.. When did energy drinks start containing alcohol??

fat kills Alcoholic

An alcoholic who suffered epileptic fits when he withdrew from alcohol was found dead at the bottom of his stairs, an inquest heard. link to story

Giants

Go Giants.. Thats my father in law JOE...Go Joe Go Giants.

back home

New Jersey was a night and on top of it I have the flu. The project went great but I have only had 5 hours sleep..

the kid is pissing me off by almost becoming a royal pain in the ass. I keep getting a flood of text messages and he is always at the wrong time for me to talk..Shit when I started working with my sponsor I kept it short. I did what I was suppose to and that is meetings.

satan himself

Guess who???

back to NJ

I have to go back to New Jersey this week. I have to deal with the unions again.. I am sick of the this project..

The kid I have been taking to meetings has been driving me nuts. I feel like killing him sometimes. He acts like he doesn't take this shit seriously... We die out there.

super sober hero

My kids and I have been getting along pretty damn good the last few days. I have to take them to the batting cages today, because spring baseball try outs are coming up in a few weeks. It is strange but there are try outs for little league baseball out here. In our area the kids have personal coaches etc.

Ostrich

My middle son has issues and we have been trying not to deal with it. He has anxiety issues and it has kept him out of school. It was a family problem and we have hide it for about a year. He has missed more than two months of school. We have now gone to the grade school and they are helping us. It is even a public school and we have been blown away on how helpful they have been. It also helps that my son is brilliant he scored 100% on state of California tests. He was out the whole time the class was preparing, which blew away all the teachers. I think he is one of us though and that what I am fearful of.

depression

I have been battling depression for several weeks, with some days worse than others. I have been the snail or crab looking for a better shell. This is tough because it always has in one of the card decks a suicide card.

AA?

I am not sure about this one..cowboy bar link you decide..

My youngest boy had a fever of 105 degrees last night. We finally got it down with an ice bath. Thank god I was not drinking.

peter pan

For all those who wouldn't believe in Peter Pan, he is alive and well. He is still fighting his Captain Hook. I need a meeting.

link for Peter Pan

the man

If I only had a 1/1000th of this mans drive and conviction in life.

Barbie Dolls

what happened to barbie? Barbie link

SAN DIEGO CHARGERS

GO CHARGERS

Esposa Familia Vermont

Video of our trip to Vermont...

extreme sleep

[Like any extreme activity, it requires the nerves of steel, good choice of timing, location and the absence of suspicious cops. All this however is easier to achieve, because you are, well... asleep, so you can trust the unseen powers to take care of the rest. Long & restful sleep is by no means guaranteed, but perhaps somebody will take your picture and you'll wake up famous]. link via: (mo geek news)

tag you fall

Technorati stats are incorrect and if you challenge them your rating will fall. They are a bunch of blow hards at their corporate office. Don't question big brother. technorati

Other than dealing with the three piece suit technorati clowns, I had a good day. It is baseball practice for the boys. I have to get them ready for baseball try outs. Sobriety isn't to bad. I have quality problems today.

caged

Addiction is sometimes like having a caged animal inside of you.

yeah

I have been dealing with that young neighbor kid who is trying to get sober. Yikes it was been grueling since he is only 18. He has been locked up since he was 14.

I have been interviewing admin assistants again. I hopefully will have someone hired by Monday.

Beijing's penis emporium

"On a dark street in Beijing but my appetite seems to have gone for a stroll outside. Nancy has brought out a whole selection of delicacies. They are draped awkwardly across a huge platter, with a crocodile carved out of a carrot as the centrepiece. Nestling beside the dog's penis are its clammy testicles, and beside that a giant salami-shaped object. "Donkey," says Nancy. "Good for the skin..." She guides me round the penis platter. "Snake. Very potent. They have two penises each." I did not know that. "BBC link

hate NY

Our flight from JFK was diverted to Ontario Ca, The fog was bad in San Diego so the Airport was closed. Now I am stuck on a bus with a bunch of ass hole New Yorkers headed to the San Diego. Several cut in line and if I wasn't with the kids I would have kicked their asses. I did have open my mouth to them and they wouldn't look at me.I get mad as shit when people don't follow the rules, or should I say my rules.

home tomorrow

Tomorrow we will be home.. Thank god. Our flight leaves JFK at 5:30pm..

headed for Connecticut

We are leaving tomorrow for Connecticut. That we will be the final run to our trip. I am wanting to go home no meetings here.

still in vermont

I am still here with tons of snow.

Vermont

I am in Vermont right now and it reminds me of California. That is the people, laid back and from the 60's kind of liberal ideals. That is fine with me. I was hoping to catch a meeting, however the place we are in a remote area. There are hippie communes close by however that won't work..

not fun

This place is driving me nuts, I am in the Adirondacks and there is still a lot of snow. We are in a small town and I am getting stir crazy, plus my wifes family is driving me nuts.

inlaws

I am at my in laws house in New Jersey. Yikes I thought this was a vacation. I really was opening this would be relaxing. We are heading to up state NY tomorrow which will be a 5 hours with 7 kids, wow.

half me

I am down in the dumps today and I am not sure why. Well I think I know why its this project from last year 07 that I keep wanting to carry. I need to give it to god like the blue book says. Why is the book blue? Does anyone know the answer to that? AA trivia.

my mouth

Damn, I have to watch my mouth at work. I told another girl in the office that my assistant was a lazy ass and how I wished she (the other girl) was my assistant. Well that got back to my assistant and all hell broke loose. Hell it was the truth however my assistant felt bad. I apologized and blamed my words on the pressure I am under. I am not a good liar and I think she knows that, but whatever. I am damn sure not going to drink over her lazy ass.

2008

I stayed sober through 2007 and made it through New Years sober. Now living sober for today starts again as we begin 2008. I am going to make more meetings this year and do my steps again. I am also going to make more calls on the phone list. My sobriety is a gift from god and alcoholics anonymous and can be taken away at anytime. link Cool site check it out. icon addicts