What a Trip

Adam Kimmel presents: Claremont HD from adam kimmel on Vimeo.

These guys are so fucked up..

2008 gone

As 2008 becomes part of the past I am hoping that 2009 will be another stepping stone in my sobriety. All I can do to insure this is to live a day at a time.

The kids seemed happy however we are getting pounded by rain. They were hoping to play outside with their new toys but its a day of video games which is ok. I am tired from staying up late playing Santa and getting up early being a dad.

santa

I went to my office tonight to pick up my 7 year old's bike and two drunk homeless guys were in front of my office door asleep. I stepped over them as they were snoring passed out and unlocked my office. I went into my office picked up the bike came back out and locked the door. I stood over them and the smell of alcohol was strong. I felt sad for them because they were missing so much in life.

I am lucky that I get to spend Christmas in a warm house with people who love me.

Happy Holidays

Have a great Holiday PEEPS

god

he is in my soberiety more than ever.

4 th step?

12 Step Program / Step 4 from Creature on Vimeo.

This video is so weird. I think there is a need for a new sponsor.

I am at work and I need to need to get home, because the phones are dead. Also I need to do a little Christmas Shopping.

two o'clock

Well I just finished one of the two sites that I am building. I can't believe it is so late. I have been at it for most of the day. Workaholic might be a good description for me. This doesn't apply to everything because in somethings I am a slacker.

I did take breaks today and threw the football with my boys.

surfing

We shall see what the waves look like tomorrow, but I am going out with my son. I need to do something with my boys.

Man I hate shopping. I need to go this weekend and get my wife something for Christmas. I am sooo excited.

cool

I am working on a large project in LA and if all goes well I should be OK for next year. I am optimistic about the economy because its out of my control. God knows I would drink over anything good or bad. I remember watching the news and drinking a lot. Now sober I maybe watch it once a week.

I am feeling good today and watching a movie with my oldest boy. How cool is that.

another gig

Well I am setting the path or should I say god is setting the path for my new adventure. That is, I am working 2 jobs basically. I am helping to build an environmental company get off the ground and that is where my heart is at now.

Thing are better at home because my wife and I have not fought in the last day or so. She is a New Yorker and I am a Californian so go figure.

hope

The committee is in and I need a meeting. I have been doing everything right I think. So whats the problem then, maybe its HALT.

Holidays

I went to my meeting tonight and it was cold for Southern California 46 degrees. The common theme was you only have today and boy was it true. There were people at the meeting who just recently lost everything wife, kids and job because of drinking again. It makes me really feel lucky today to be sober.

The battle front with the wife increased today but I finally backed off. I forget that I am a master of pushing peoples buttons. Its old behavior and nothing good comes from pushing peoples buttons.

DWI

We went to my sons football party and pretty much everyone was drinking. I was a little pissed because everyone started to get drunk and the egos where flying high. At the end of the night the coach told everyone that there was a DWI check point down the street. Then he gave alternate directions to avoid the checkpoint. OMG...

Tomorrow I have a lot of work to do because I am trying get really organized. Keeping organized helps me keep sober.

here

Well I got into a fight with my wife today. It sucks because as usual I opened my mouth..

Drinkers

We have a neighborhood Christmas party coming up and there are some heavy drinkers that attend. They aren't as heavy as I was, but it makes me uncomfortable. So I will say I and bye to those people at the party.

I am looking forward to the holidays to catch up on my sleep.

Train

My fourth and fifth step are done.. I am just glad I moved beyond these steps. They have been a hard one for me because I could forgive myself and my father.

Free Today

I am free today of the bondage of alcoholism. But I can screw that up if I decide to take back my control from GOD.

Since I have been out of town all week my wife has elected that today will be the day to put up all the Christmas decorations. So my task is to get down all the boxes and put the outside lights up. I am not to excited about this because I was hoping to kick back today and watch the football games. However it's not all about me today.

just dont drink

Wow I made it through this conference full on drunk bastards and I didn't drink. This is a conference that I attend every year and it is full of hardest drinkers. The economy helped fuel more drinking for these people.

So I guess I am a winner today.

no 4th

My Sponsor is sick so not doing the deal today and that sucked. I am heading to phoenix in the morning for a 3 day conference and these drinkers are hardcore. So I am just going to try not to drink each day.

I will be ok as a girl on a white horse doesn't coming riding up..

Steps

Tomorrow at 4:00pm my 4th and 5th step will be given to my sponsor. I am dreading feeling all this shit again. I have burried all this for so long. I am fearful of being free from the things that eat me daily.