fuck little man

My resentments torwards my boss are pileing up on a daily basis. He has found things to screw with me on and I am ready to knock his head.

I need to give him less power over me in my life and give some back to god.

sobra

I am flying on a sober high at least for today. I have made it through the storm and I haven't had a drink.

The president of our company is truly an evil man, he has screwed me out of money time after time but it is my fault for working for him. I fear change and when it finds me I want to drink . I have been praying for unclouded thoughts with a clear direction.

JOB

Falling Times is an everlasting and growing real-time news translation machine .

I have been in the dumps because my crooked boss put me on 100% commission and that sucks. I have 3 boys and a wife to feed. He is an asshole but its my fault for working for a crook.

Rush Limbaugh

Under the make up Rush Limbaugh shows signs of years of drug abuse. He is a addict looking for a fix. If he stayed off the pills long enough maybe he would have clear thoughts not irrational. He truly lives in his own wacky world.

Super Bowl Ad Ban

I swear I love Peta. I am ok same old shit though.

green toliet paper rolls

Wow this is a cool photo. Its for recycling toilet paper rolls. I have been into the recycling culture for several years now. Being in that environment makes makes me feel passion again.

Back at fighting with the wife and I am getting tired of opening my fat mouth. I am the ultimate button pusher and I need to stop.

sports

Well the boys are sitting out on baseball this season. It was their decisions so that makes it final. My hopes for a baseball star in my family is fading. 2 boys want to play football and 1 wants to play soccer.

I was pushed into baseball and football as a kid and I ended up hating both sports. I played it in high school but it wasn't out the love for the sport. I ended up taking it out on the field which had a good result but my heart wasn't there mainly for football.

I am letting my boys make their own decisions on what they want to do in sports and then I will be behind them 100%.

Thanks Daave for getting my emotions running this morning.. lol

obama

Obama rocks and I am glad he is president. GW can go hide in his bunker now. I am feeling pretty good today. Last night I went to a jazz bar with my wife and friends and we had a cool time. I was the only sober one but that was ok because I had a lot of fun. You know living sober is the only way I can survive in this world and it requires God and meetings.

see you bitch

Bush needs to be charged for war crimes.

I am working my ass off and I am seeing results. This is a good thing.

ok

I am ok. I was just keeping in my head to long. I am out now going to meetings talking to program people and everything is back to where I need to be.

meeting

I feel as if all my thoughts are spinning in my head. I have soooo much shit going on. I talked with a couple program people tonight in an effort to gather my thoughts. All I heard was meeting, meeting and meeting.

simple

All the new designs seem more simplistic. One thing that hasn't changed in AA is keeping it simple. A couple guys in my group went out and the results were no differnt. They have been keeping this thing called soberity not sacred. I am going with another brother to take one of them to the airport. We are flying him to a treatment center since all have been exhausted here.

one drink + one alcholic = death

stars

When I was drinking I never looked up to the see the stars. I always looked down to see how many beers I had left.

My mother in law is still here and so is my sanity, so I guess everything is ok today.

hope

I want the good days back. The job uncertainty is killing me.

My mother in law is still here and she is snoring right now. I can hear her from across the house. I am going to try to get some sleep.

blogger

I am wondering if by blogging you lose weight. This guy apparently has lost weight from blogging.

My wifes new brakes cost me $403.00 today from PEP Boys. This sucked because we are tight on the money because the Christmas bills are coming.

future of me

The future is now and my deal is that without AA and god I have no future.

I am working on some future products that are truly green but without support it makes things difficult. I swear I beating my head against the wall and I just can't give up.

My Mother in law is in town and she drives me nuts. She is one of those people who know everything and talk over you. I would like to box her up and send her to an island with no inhabitants. So she can only talk to herself.

2009

Happy New Year.. We had our party tonight and again I am sober for another year. One of our friends brought over the biggest bottle of Vodka I had ever seen. They also took it with them when they left. Some people had a lot to drink but it did not bother me. I am to tired to chase it anymore, at least for today. They all know I am program boy.

My boy is ok and with stitches, boys are boys.

emergency room

7 year old + 9 year old = Children's Hospital. The formula is correct again as I am heading out the door to take the 7 years old in for about 6 stitches. see you tomorrow,

painting

I spent all day painting my sons room as a bottom of the sea theme. I am a perfectionist so painting seeems to take me longer than your avererage joe. He seems very happy on the results so far.

We are getting the house ready for our New Years Eve party. I am doing touch up painting and cleaning. At our party there will be minimal drinking in my house and that is my rules.

12:00 pm drinker

Well my sister is at the 12:00 pm drinking a couple beers phase. She is not far from crossing the line into a morning drinker like me. This was the worst message I got this holiday season. I plan on talking to her later today but as we all know there is not much I can do but pray. After I post this I am calling my sponsor.