The Chinese "RABBIT"

You'll have purchases to make for your children or your house, and money will come to you at just the right moment. If there are problems that put you in opposition to your beloved one, you'll be in a position to solve them. You'll enjoy good health, what luck! Don't take any medicine that isn't prescribed to you by your doctor. All will go well if you let yourself be carried away by the waves and seize the good opportunities that are presented to you, but don't ask yourself too many questions.

North Korea Urges Women to Wear Dresses

SEOUL, South Korea - North Korea's communist government is urging women in the country to wear traditional Korean clothes instead of pants, according to a North Korean monthly magazine. "Keeping alive our dress style is a very important political issue to adhere to specific national cultural traditions at a time when the U.S. imperialists are maneuvering to spread the rotten bourgeois lifestyle inside North Korea," the Joson Yeosung (Woman) magazine said, according to South Korea's Yonhap news agency. The magazine said exotic dress dampens the revolutionary atmosphere in society and blurs national sentiment and asked the public to reject clothes that aren't North Korean style. Instead, it counsels women to wear Hanbok — the brightly colored, loose-fitting dresses that are traditional in the Koreas.The campaign comes as North Korea struggles to tighten its control over an influx of outside influences, which it claims is part of a U.S. psychological offensive aimed at toppling the communist regime — a charge Washington denies. Early this year, the North also launched a social campaign against men with long hair, calling them unhygienic, anti-socialist fools. The North, which demands unquestioning allegiance of its citizens and controls all media, has stepped up the ideological education of its people to counter outside influences. However, the country's loosely controlled border with China has led recently to increased traffic in smuggled recordings of music and videos from the outside.

Why France is Burning

Great article on why France is burning.

The little man

I had a bad business meeting today. My client who I was suppose to meet with had a business emergency to attend. So he passed me to a guy who was just not willing to give me the info I needed. So, I cut the meeting short and thanked him. He then told me he had his own business emergencies to attend and seemed happy that we were done. I called my boss and he was spiting fire. Then the 5,000 questions began the interrogation. I felt as if I was a failure. How could a midget throw so many blows. Fuck him. He changed our insurance to $1000.00 deductible per person, that's $5,000.00. He is 90 days late on reimbursing my expenses totaling $7,000.00. So, I told him I took $10,000.00 out of my retirement to cover the bills and all the little bastard could say was "you got to do what you got to do". I don't get him at all.

My Head My Program

4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves...... NO 5. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs......NO

Butt Boys

Butt Boys
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I don't know what to think about this...

"We do not torture"

Bush: "We do not torture" 40 minutes ago PANAMA CITY (Reuters) - U.S. President George W. Bush said on Monday "we do not torture" and defended his administration's efforts to stop the U.S. Congress from imposing rules on the handling of terrorism suspects.

I went to church today to find my higher power....

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The Bunny From Hell

The prognosis of the bunny is not good. The hind leg is possibly infected in the joint. The bunny is at the vet, they called us today and said it would be an additional $400.00 with medication to due the blood test need to confirm the bunny's fate. If the infection is bad the back leg will be amputated at an additional cost. I told the vet look we have done everything financial we could, we have already paid $300.00 in medical costs for this bunny. In addition we only had the bunny three days prior to all this shit happening. This vet does all the work for the pet store and is probably the top veterinarian in SoCAl. I asked what are the options and she told me the pet store told her that they would be willing to give me a new bunny and they would take care of the current bunny. After my whole family cried on the decision I told her to give the bunny back to the pet store. The hell with getting a new bunny.

Rebellion Dogs

A whole lifetime geared to self-centeredness cannot be set in reverse all at once. Rebellion dogs our every step at first. When we have finally admitted without reservation that we are powerless over alcohol, we are apt to breathe a sigh of relief, saying, "Well, thank God that's over! I'll never have to go through that again!" Then we learn, often to our consternation, that this is only the first milestone on the new road we are walking. Reprinted from Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, Page 73, with permission of A.A. World Services, Inc.

Dictionary definition for “dry drunk”

dry drunk n. a sober person who behaves as if drunk, esp. a recovering alcoholic who displays bad judgment; such behavior. I hate the term DRY Drunk it sounds so awful. This is a fear I have becoming in sobriety. I know if I work the steps, go to meetings and remain honest I will not become a dry drunk. I spent most of my life being miserable and there is no way I am going to be miserable in sobriety.

Step Study Step 1

I try to read this step everyday if possible. It always takes me back to when I hit my bottom and lost complete control of my life. The alcohol didn't work for me regardless of how much I drank. I had been drinking everyday just to survive and finally my hands would not stop shaking. The alcohol no longer was working for the pain and fear I felt inside. I was begging God to take my life and at the same time pleading for him to help me. My life had become unmanageable and for the first I had a willingness to stop drinking. I entered a rehab center and spent 5 days in detox and an additional 28 1/2 days in their program. They introduced me to AA and it was there that I learned of the steps. I completed step 1 in rehab and again with my sponsor after I got out.

I swear this is my grandmother. She and my uncle told me early on the only way to cure a hangover is to have another drink. I tried to practice this principle in my daily affairs.

Gratitude Today

1) I am thankful I'm not alone. 2) My boys love me now and don't try to distance themselves from me. 3) They laugh now instead of cry or withdraw. 4) I am sober today. 5) I have a god in my life most of the time. 6) I half a roof over my families head and food on the table. 7) I have a Job. 8) I am not dead. 9) My kids aren't on the streets. 10) my wife gave me a second chance. 11) God Gave me a second chance. 12) I feel like my memory and cerebral activity is regenerating. 13) I am thankful for AA.

No Excuse

“The optimist sees the glass half full. The pessimist sees the glass half empty. The drunk says, 'Are you gonna drink that'?" Robert G. eschewing the philosophical for the practical. “You’re paying off like the world’s worst slot machine.” Rick E. watching his friend regurgitate expensive scotch outside the Whiskey Bar. “You have abused the right to say something stupid.” Tom B. in Orlando after getting his fill of his barstool neighbor. “I tried drinking myself to death. Now I have to get my health back just so I’ll have the strength to jump in front of a bus.” Tracy M. switches mortal gears in Manhattan, KS. “The damn wagon’s too crowded anyway.” Anonymous drunk about to take a fall in front of the Lions Lair Lounge. “The drinking will continue until you show a dramatic improvement in attitude.” Sandy T., 28, addressing her “uppity” liver at the Cockpit Lounge. “Everybody gets fucked over by the world sooner or later. It just happened to you a little sooner than you probably expected.” Bonnie B. comforting a heartbroken friend at the Squire Lounge.

Nakkad Thursday

My feet are the ugliest of all my extremities.

Trying

Thanks! I had a whirl wind yesterday and today that about knocked me off my feet. As I was driving home tonight I had a taste of whiskey in my mouth, but it was all in my head. I was so deep in my head I was thinking about alcohol and how bad everything was, that I was in very dangerous territory. This is a place I haven't been but just a few times in 1 1/2 years of sobriety. However the urge to drink was much greater this time. As I kept driving I grasped the steering wheel as tight as I could as if to hold on. I called my sponsor who wasn't home but I knew it wouldn't be long before he would call me back. I called another person who made me fill a little better. When I got to my office I felt like curling up on the floor and I didn't want to go home. My sponsor called and made me feel like I wasn't alone and reminded me of what it was like a year and a half ago and where I am today. The gratitude part I didn't want to hear but I listened. He told me to go home, for today is only a day and right now I was sober. A drink would solve my problems for a second and all I have built back in a year and half would lay in ruins. I have realized I can't make it sober alone. I am home now and I will go to sleep early and pray.

Dinner

I went to dinner tonight with my wife and our company's east coast VP. We ate at a nice Italian restaurant and both of them discussing what type of wine to order. After my day, a nice big glass of wine sounded like a good idea. They talked about a bottle I felt like that was a good start, but then they decided on just a glass. I just couldn't understand that for some reason. A glass of wine seems like just not enough, either did just one bottle. The obsession for alcohol is alive and well inside me. I am an alcoholic.

Stress

I have one of the VP's from the east coast coming today for a business meeting. I am going to try my best not to fuck with him. He wants to stay at our house tonight, which has caused arguments with my wife and I. I have known him for 20 years and to tell him to get a hotel room would probably make him cry. So, I cleaned up the house last night since he is my guest. My wife seemed happy last night after she saw that I cleaned the house. One less thing for me to be stress out about today.

Halloween

This the one of the promises that AA talks about; I get to be with my kids on Halloween Sober.