BABE IN BOOTS

The gift of sobriety allows me to love a woman unconditionally, plus she has boots. So if these boots are meant for walking then they can walk all over me. Sober and in Love, WOW its a beautiful thing. And she is HOT.

Woman I Love

I am still sober now 7.5 years and closing on 8 by living one day at a time. There is a woman I have been going out with that has freed my soul. She is like a mirror image of me in many ways. My sponsor and others have made comments about how I now have a glow. I am happy now and it’s great to be sober so that I can take all this in.. pretty cool..

Here but Where

I have 6 years now and my B date is May 17th. I feel good just beat from trying to get two companies off the ground. I hit meetings every week so that hasn't changed and I am still calling my sponsor everyday.. Wow a lot of phone calls over the 6 years. Thanks Garner I saw your email and broke away from my chaotic life for a second.. I will keep in touch my bros and sistas..

Meeting

I use to drink out of any type of bottle. I preferred the larger ones though.

Went to a meeting tonight and there was a lot of new faces and some not. One person had gone out after having 10 years to try it once more. Same results and the same story as everyone else who goes out, it just doesn't work.

Where the Hell have I been

Wow I am coming up on 6 years and I have been working my ass off trying to get 2 company's off the ground. I have been tempted to drink but just not today. I am trying to get back to blogging, TIME. Hitting meetings and calling my sponsor everyday is what I do.

I really don't have the desire to drink nor the energy. I am to tired to go chasing that anymore. Looking back it is hard to believe all the hiding and running around I did for WHAT? I like waking up with a clear head every morning, its a good thing.

HERE

I am watching of all shows celebrity rehab. Some seem real others I am not sure of. When I was drinking and using I was a celebrity too. So I thought...

Man this working on your own thing is for the birds because I feel like I am working for free. Well I am for now.

Bible Study

Bible study is the other thing I am doing that I typically wouldn't do if it was left up to me. However I take direction from my sponsor and I am glad that I do because my spiritual side needs help.

The photo is of my boys and I thank god for them. They are a gift.

XMAS PARTY

Let me rephrase that sometimes at the party's people sit in corners and it is not fun. However last night was great and on top of it there were 4 birthdays. It was a lot of laughs and for a guy like me laughter is good.

Look for me there are thousands of reasons on why not to go to a meeting or party. I just need to go because when I do my expectations are never correct and I end up enjoying the meeting or party.

HOME GROUP X-MAS PARTY

AA Christmas party tonight and I am going alone. It will be fun however I can not stay to long. They say we are not a glum lot, but a lot of times these type of party's are boring and clickish.

WOW STUMBLED HERE

I am doing good hit a meeting last night. I still find it easy to get a resentment. Some people came in last night late and walked right in front of the person speaking. I was pissed and didn't hear the rest of the meeting.

I miss blogging but right now I have 3 jobs. One company I own, one company I have equity in and the other I am consultant in sort of.. = 0 hours in the day.

FLOATING SOBER

Wow I have been busting ass on my new company and hitting meetings and a bible study class. I am doing the things I don't want to do, it helps keep me sober.

I have seen a lot of people die in 5 1/2 years and that is what the reality is for me if I decide to have a drink. I need to blog more because it helps me keep it real.

clean living

Simple clean living just like that

Watching the kids while the wife is at a funeral in NY.

alone

When I am feeling alone I go to a meeting. It is the place were I can feel some comfort.

My son's soccer game always makes me feel good. I like to see him running around and enjoying himself. They tied one game and lost a game to a team that is in a higher level. It is all cool though.

HOT

Wow it is so hot here in Southern California. My son's soccer game yesterday was played when the temperature was 105 degrees. They were all almost collapsing from the heat by the end of the game. We lost too which made it feel hotter.

I helped clean the house yesterday as well as organize it and I feel better. It is amazing to me that I can feel so much better being organized. Organization is part of my program believe it or not.

HERE

Hey thanks Scot for the comment.I have been busting my ass on my new company and it is a virtual time sucker. I have not wavered in my program. I love this picture because it is what the reality is if I try to stay sober alone.

My son has a soccer game today and I am excited. I love to watch him play because he enjoys it so much. The other 2 were playing football and due to a scandal evolving a couple coaches the season wont happen for them as well as the other kids. The coaches have big egos and decided to hold practices early despite league rules. These coaches are assholes and the odds are they really never played high school or college football.

I need to stay with the blogging because writing this somehow made me feel good.

wow

Life has been in session with me lately. I have been busy setting up a new company and trying to keep my marriage and program together. I am lacking in both areas and feeling like I can not do it all.

love and tolerance

Wow love and tolerance is what I need to remember at meetings. It is easy for me to get a resentment.

Life is crazy my deadline is coming for my website so I am pushing as hard as I can to make the date.

Pod

I was pissed off at my oldest because I thought he took my Ipod. I was acting like the old behavior which was not good. I have to watch myself because I am quick to judge and 95% of the time I am wrong.

The boys have their soccer games tomorrow and pop warner football is starting soon. Running back and forth all Saturday is getting old quick.

GOD HELP

This website is driving me nuts. There is some much to do and I am even having problems picking colors aaahhh. I need to move on so I sent it to some of my designer friends. The more I can deligate the better I will be. Some things need to go to god other things need to go to people who know what they are doing.

I need to go to a meeting today or tomorrow..

scarletts

Wow there is something about silent films!!

We went to a party today at some friends house. There where 5 couples there and they were all drinking. Man its hard when it was a hot day and you have to watch your friends drink ice cold beer. I was bumming a little bit but I soon got over it because I went home.