friday

Except Drink..

Another day at the office with a ego freak midget boss,. I will probably go to a meeting today because god knows it would be good for me.

change

When I was in rehab there was a large american indian who taught me the way to a sober life. He told me one day that when you see a young rabbit it's a sign that you need more patience. The next morning I saw three, so I have been working on it since.

I met for lunch today the person who I would manage at my new job. She was nice, and your typical california hippy. I would be able to work with her so that is a good thing. They are suppose to make an offer next week.

what the

My boss hired his nephew and wants me to train him to work in my territory. There is something wrong with this picture, but whatever. If he wants me gone than so be it. I am too tired to give a shit about this job. I do the best I can and thats got to be worth something. It will be weird, but what isn't in this world. I am part owner of the company so if I leave I will get something. Perhaps scraps, however being sober and dealing with a fear is a hell of a lot easier than being drunk and worrying about everything.

interview

I have a interview tomorrow at 4:00pm in santa monica. I am sort of nervous about the whole deal. I am still a person who doesn't like change regardless of the pain. I am just trying to think of this as nothing more than a simple sales call. My wife said I shouldn't act like myself because I am a asshole sometimes. I get nervous when I don't act myself and I am usually an asshole to people with egos. I am not sure if this guy has one, but I sure hope not. I hate the whole idea of trying to impress someone I don't even know. I have just prayed and put it into gods hands for now.