still sad

It is amazing how draining this funeral has been for me. I am wiped out and then I have to fly to NJ tomorrow. Do I hear a violin??

tears

my first tears rolled down down my face today. The death has caused me much grief. I was just sad all the way through the services. I am emotionally spent.

airport

I am getting ready to board a plane to head to florida. The funeral is tomorrow......

christine dead

My cousin died Friday night after leaving a bar. She hit a car and died on impact. She leaves 2 young kids motherless. I am headed to the funeral on Tuesday. This is the result of drinking and the consequence are that we die.

solar project.

I have been working on my solar project for over several months. I just finished the first prototype this weekend. I filmed it work and it was successful. So I hope to be working on the final prototype soon. I went to an AA meeting tonight and felt alone even with the people I know. I don't know why I am now feeling this now, but hopefully it will pass.

double dutch

I have been trying to be a little more creative in my approach to business. I am working hard so things should start coming in, you would think. Whatever, life is good. I am taking a guy around to meetings. He is older and needs to get this program quickly, because he is he won't make another winter. I don't know why some get it and others don't, but I am glad I am on the getting side.

sunday night meeting

The meeting was really good and filled with a lot of new comers. I like their stories because that is an indecator of how it will be for me if i have a drink.

today

I am enjoying life sober with no wars to wage.

I am sober

I am sober and feeling good about today. The time during the withdrawals and the insanity of the first year has paid off. My life sober is better than I could have imagined.

home

I am sitting at the Portland airport waiting on my flight so that I can go home. I have been working hard lately, but I am still sober. It is a battle I contend with on a daily basis. God and the program are what keep me safe.

headed to portland

Heeyaaa.. Headed to portland, however I wish I was going home.. not till tomorrow night..

the max hotel

I am staying at the max hotel in seattle and it is a pretty awesome hotel. I can see the space needle from my room.

I went to a meeting tonight on pike street in downtown and saw a guy who was green. I have seen this several times since I have been sober. They usually don't make it from what I hear. It is sad and a waste of life, however it makes me vigilant on my program. I thank god I am sober today.