Wednesday, December 31, 2008


Happy New Year.. We had our party tonight and again I am sober for another year. One of our friends brought over the biggest bottle of Vodka I had ever seen. They also took it with them when they left. Some people had a lot to drink but it did not bother me. I am to tired to chase it anymore, at least for today. They all know I am program boy.

My boy is ok and with stitches, boys are boys.

Monday, December 29, 2008

emergency room

7 year old + 9 year old = Children's Hospital. The formula is correct again as I am heading out the door to take the 7 years old in for about 6 stitches. see you tomorrow,

Saturday, December 27, 2008


I spent all day painting my sons room as a bottom of the sea theme. I am a perfectionist so painting seeems to take me longer than your avererage joe. He seems very happy on the results so far.

We are getting the house ready for our New Years Eve party. I am doing touch up painting and cleaning. At our party there will be minimal drinking in my house and that is my rules.

Friday, December 26, 2008

12:00 pm drinker

Well my sister is at the 12:00 pm drinking a couple beers phase. She is not far from crossing the line into a morning drinker like me. This was the worst message I got this holiday season. I plan on talking to her later today but as we all know there is not much I can do but pray. After I post this I am calling my sponsor.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

What a Trip

Adam Kimmel presents: Claremont HD from adam kimmel on Vimeo.

These guys are so fucked up..

2008 gone

As 2008 becomes part of the past I am hoping that 2009 will be another stepping stone in my sobriety. All I can do to insure this is to live a day at a time.

The kids seemed happy however we are getting pounded by rain. They were hoping to play outside with their new toys but its a day of video games which is ok. I am tired from staying up late playing Santa and getting up early being a dad.


I went to my office tonight to pick up my 7 year old's bike and two drunk homeless guys were in front of my office door asleep. I stepped over them as they were snoring passed out and unlocked my office. I went into my office picked up the bike came back out and locked the door. I stood over them and the smell of alcohol was strong. I felt sad for them because they were missing so much in life.

I am lucky that I get to spend Christmas in a warm house with people who love me.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Happy Holidays

Have a great Holiday PEEPS


he is in my soberiety more than ever.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

4 th step?

12 Step Program / Step 4 from Creature on Vimeo.

This video is so weird. I think there is a need for a new sponsor.

I am at work and I need to need to get home, because the phones are dead. Also I need to do a little Christmas Shopping.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

two o'clock

Well I just finished one of the two sites that I am building. I can't believe it is so late. I have been at it for most of the day. Workaholic might be a good description for me. This doesn't apply to everything because in somethings I am a slacker.

I did take breaks today and threw the football with my boys.

Friday, December 19, 2008


We shall see what the waves look like tomorrow, but I am going out with my son. I need to do something with my boys.

Man I hate shopping. I need to go this weekend and get my wife something for Christmas. I am sooo excited.

Thursday, December 18, 2008


I am working on a large project in LA and if all goes well I should be OK for next year. I am optimistic about the economy because its out of my control. God knows I would drink over anything good or bad. I remember watching the news and drinking a lot. Now sober I maybe watch it once a week.

I am feeling good today and watching a movie with my oldest boy. How cool is that.

another gig

Well I am setting the path or should I say god is setting the path for my new adventure. That is, I am working 2 jobs basically. I am helping to build an environmental company get off the ground and that is where my heart is at now.

Thing are better at home because my wife and I have not fought in the last day or so. She is a New Yorker and I am a Californian so go figure.

Monday, December 15, 2008


The committee is in and I need a meeting. I have been doing everything right I think. So whats the problem then, maybe its HALT.

Sunday, December 14, 2008


I went to my meeting tonight and it was cold for Southern California 46 degrees. The common theme was you only have today and boy was it true. There were people at the meeting who just recently lost everything wife, kids and job because of drinking again. It makes me really feel lucky today to be sober.

The battle front with the wife increased today but I finally backed off. I forget that I am a master of pushing peoples buttons. Its old behavior and nothing good comes from pushing peoples buttons.

Saturday, December 13, 2008


We went to my sons football party and pretty much everyone was drinking. I was a little pissed because everyone started to get drunk and the egos where flying high. At the end of the night the coach told everyone that there was a DWI check point down the street. Then he gave alternate directions to avoid the checkpoint. OMG...

Tomorrow I have a lot of work to do because I am trying get really organized. Keeping organized helps me keep sober.


Well I got into a fight with my wife today. It sucks because as usual I opened my mouth..

Thursday, December 11, 2008


We have a neighborhood Christmas party coming up and there are some heavy drinkers that attend. They aren't as heavy as I was, but it makes me uncomfortable. So I will say I and bye to those people at the party.

I am looking forward to the holidays to catch up on my sleep.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008


My fourth and fifth step are done.. I am just glad I moved beyond these steps. They have been a hard one for me because I could forgive myself and my father.

Sunday, December 07, 2008

Free Today

I am free today of the bondage of alcoholism. But I can screw that up if I decide to take back my control from GOD.

Since I have been out of town all week my wife has elected that today will be the day to put up all the Christmas decorations. So my task is to get down all the boxes and put the outside lights up. I am not to excited about this because I was hoping to kick back today and watch the football games. However it's not all about me today.

Saturday, December 06, 2008

just dont drink

Wow I made it through this conference full on drunk bastards and I didn't drink. This is a conference that I attend every year and it is full of hardest drinkers. The economy helped fuel more drinking for these people.

So I guess I am a winner today.

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

no 4th

My Sponsor is sick so not doing the deal today and that sucked. I am heading to phoenix in the morning for a 3 day conference and these drinkers are hardcore. So I am just going to try not to drink each day.

I will be ok as a girl on a white horse doesn't coming riding up..

Monday, December 01, 2008


Tomorrow at 4:00pm my 4th and 5th step will be given to my sponsor. I am dreading feeling all this shit again. I have burried all this for so long. I am fearful of being free from the things that eat me daily.