Friday, November 23, 2007


no doctor

I went to the Dr's office today and they were closed. I am going to try to go tomorrow. I have been feeling weaker and weaker everyday. This whole thing really sucks. I think it is from my immune system getting shut down. My lymphoid is getting larger under my armpit. That sound gross but it's not because its my armpit and not yours.

I have been sitting out front of my house talking to a young kid who has been trying to get sober, well he says he has been sober for 90 days. He is very young and has been through a lot so I hope he keeps this shit. I have taken him to several meetings and have been pushing him to get a sponsor. Someone closer to his age would be preferred otherwise I will do it.

Thursday, November 22, 2007

happy thanksgiving

Happy Thanks Giving all my bleeps. I found a lump in my armpit today. Doctor visit tomorrow. wild turkeys

Monday, November 19, 2007

flu from hell

This flu virus going around is a nasty one. It has not caused any respiratory problems for me as the typical flu virus does. This strain seems to make all your joints ache unbearably. We have been all hit by the virus, the three boys and my wife. It is like we are all on our own. We don't have any close family members out here, which sucks. I hope it doesn't get down to us eating each other..just kidding. I am just happy to be a ache sober man.

Sunday, November 18, 2007


I went to my home group meeting tonight after a two week hiatuses. I have been all about work, because I have been falling behind. I hope I will catch up this week, however the meeting was just what I needed. I got up and shared from the heart and I felt better. Nothing has ever been as bad as I thought and usually turns out to be OK as long as I am honest. That's one of the parts of AA that truly amazes me.

We celebrated two birthdays together today. My oldest sons birthday was during the fire so we postponed it to today. We played baseball for younger kids and football for the the older. My ass was worn out but the kids had fun and thats whats life about.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007


Now I am in the desert on a project and my body is crying out for relief. This endless battle I am having on my projects will be over soon. For that I am grateful.

Saturday, November 10, 2007


i am taking a eighteen year old boy to a meeting tonight. He has been through some hard times. He has been hanging around gang bangers and drug addicts. I hope he will do this program.

I have been exhausted all day from working my ass off last week. I have to finish another project by Tuesday morning. I have a crew coming to the project Monday night to bang this job out. I pray this one will go through with no hitches. Staying sober through these tough times has been hard.

Friday, November 09, 2007


I have been in New Jersey working on a project. I had no time to post, which made me sad. I push all the union crews on the job and man that was a bitch. I had to make sure several crews where doing their jobs, which were on opposite ends of the project. I started at 6:00 am and ended at 2:30 am every day. My body is weak and tired, but I am sober thanks to god.

Saturday, November 03, 2007


Sometimes I believe this disease is carried by an evil demon. It makes since because my diswase wanted me dragged through the coals and parade me among others to my eminent death.

Friday, November 02, 2007

hanging in there

Man, I have had a hellacious week.I have felt alone and like drinking. So I went to a meeting and as always I felt better. My project at work has been going south and my assistant in the south east screwed up bad. However it is my head on the platter. AA saved my ass again and I thank god.