Wednesday, January 31, 2007


Back to reality from second life. I have to take my kids to the batting cages tonight. They are doing good, but I have to up the speed to 50mph. Thats about the speed of daaves pitch lol. I also need to work on the fielding and pop flys. I am planning on busting their asses this weekend on the fielding aspects of the game. I have 10 days left to get them ready for try outs and I have a feeling if they don't make it I will be the blame. My wife as been on my ass about this since they signed up 2 months ago. I have been working with them a couple times a week and I think they will be ready. However, the day of try outs will be up to them on how well they perform. All I can do is pray. Life is good through sober eyes.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

second life post

You can buy many strange items for decorating your love nest in Second Life. Like, look at this list from one of the merchands. Like an Orgazmic Asian Mint Rug that comes with built-in sex positions, or a Rope Bondage Set for tying people up in a variety of poses, if they wear standard wrist cuffs. Or how about a Tentacled Monster for Females, complete with its own pool. Hm, I'm not sure I really understand sex in Second Life. Like, it seems it usually involves 'pose balls'. What on earth is that? ty sexoteric
  • This is really a time consuming product. I am still convinced the main reason for the draw of people has to do with porn, gambling and a hell of a lot of lonely people. There was one area that pissed me off and that was a pedophile area marked children's playground. Some people created themselves as little kids and performed sex acts with adults under a circus tent. This was to sick for me so I left only wishing I could buy a second life gun and kill the bastards.
  • I am checking out the whole corporate deal of having your company building on the site. You can use the office building as a IM meeting place which gives a personal twist to instant messaging. The graphics for using in the meeting aren't good enough for presentations yet, so its limited. I am trying my best to find any inherent value for second life, so I am giving it another week.

Sunday, January 28, 2007

second life

In second life you can even drink with out getting drunk. Basically it's a place where you go to do everything else you can't do in the real world. I am testing it for my wife's company and it is a dangerous place.


Even being sober I have to watch my ego. Sometimes I think I'm better and bigger than others. It turns me into Mr. super asshole. My family doesn't want to be around me and I am sure to get into a fight with my wife. It never fails that I end up feeling like shit. I keep trying to take the self out of self will and add god.


Its all about boobs. Even man boobs, I am with you scott on this issue. Guys tend to get man boobs if they gain weight and especially if they had lifted weights in the younger years and then gain weight in the latter years. The best way to lose those unsightly man boobs is to lose the weight and pick up bench pressing again. As for women there are not too many bad boobs big or small.

Saturday, January 27, 2007


I went today with all three of my boys to the batting cages. I have been working on their hitting and the cool thing is that they are listening to me. It has been a tough road, but finally I can give my advice and they see the results. Being a alcoholic dad isn't easy with 3 bullheaded sons.

Friday, January 26, 2007

the light

When I was drinking the light of god was up my ass, because thats where my head was located. I didn't need a god for I was the one in control. However since being sober I have seen the light to my god. It has taken a little time for the bugs to clear but now he is with me.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

for the record

MC rocks and is very funny. However there were two photos taken and MC chose the one she looked good in..Next time I will do the choosing. Run hard MC and don't let the young witch catch you.

smoking lounge at Denvers airport

What the hell is this all about. The lounge looked like on of those you would find in a bad area of town after 3:00 am.

Sunday, January 21, 2007


I went to my meeting tonight and I feel really good. It's my home group and a men's stag meeting. It is not your typical AA meeting, because its a rowdy crowd. There is a little cross talking, but it is all in fun. They get you to laugh at yourself and for a alcoholic that's a pretty hard thing to do. Also the meeting somehow gets you honest pretty quickly. I think it's the podium in the front of room where you stand to share in a room of 60 men. This meeting is one of the reasons why I am sober today.

Friday, January 19, 2007

wrong numbers

I use to play the lotto all the time. I really believed that one day I would win the lotto and all my problems would go away. Today all the problems are real and I am sober to deal with them. I have three great boys who I love with all my heart and a wife who stood by me. Some how I think I won the lotto.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

My Soul

Since I have been sober my soul is in the hands of my god and not in my mind or in a bottle.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007


I liked this little quote because I want to be interesting. I have spent most of my life invisible to myself and others. I never liked who I was, so I would drink and use. I did this on a daily basis for years until I almost became permanently invisible. I like myself more each day now that I am sober and that is amazing for a guy like me.

My wife is in DC and on to NY for a book signing and I am at home with the boys. I have been working out of the house this week and it is hard. There are too many distractions for me to get a lot of work done. My boys are asking me to play basketball, baseball or play a video game and I hate to say no. Over 2 3/4 years ago my boys avoided me at all cost and today that’s different. I guess you could call it a miracle.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Life with alcohol



One of my teams has won today and the other is playing. I am not at a party for the playoffs, I am watching the games at home. Its not the same as a bar hanging out with my old friends watching the games. It sucks a little bit, but I had to change my life and the only way to do it was not to drink. So now I guess those days are just memories of the past.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

we all are victims

Friends of ours are going through difficult times right now. The husband has been drinking heavily and the wife is falling to pieces. I saw her today a my sons basketball game and tears were in her eyes, but she did not cry. Her brother died last week in a motorcycle accident and she is trying to maintain herself as well as the household. Her husband is worthless shit right now and avoids me like I have the plague. He knows I am sober, but just does not want it yet. I say yet, with the hope he gets this program one day. It's truly sad to see this disease from the outside, because it's heartbreaking.

Friday, January 12, 2007

cool old lady

I would have drank with this old lady.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

my office

This is a view from my new office. I like it better over here because there are less distractions. I can get more work done, so thats the bottom line.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

The patron saint of WalMart

It is a painting by artist Kate Kretz. The Madonna of Consumption. Obviously Angelina Jolie is the model for this. Imagine that painted on the ceiling in your local link

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Life on Lifes Terms

Thats exactly what I have been doing lately and it feels great with one exception I am tired. Sometimes its exhausting having kids and now that my wife is working everything has become worse. We both have more work, because of my 3 little pigs (my boys). Wow, I never realized what little pigs they truly are, because my wife would pick up their shit before I got home. I need to lay down a new law "thou shall pick up and not pee on the toliet seats."

Monday, January 08, 2007


"You reap what you sow"

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Winds have changed

I have been feeling shitty lately. I am sick of the program and the people. Basically just all sick of the whole thing.

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Venice Beach "FireMan"

This guy was the best street performer, so I took a video for you guys.

Venice Beach

We hung out at Venice Beach most of the day with the MIL its her last day here. We had fun checking out the performers on the beach. We walked around on the beach. There is definitely a lot of strange people that hang out there. I am tired from driving around everywhere and I am over do for a meeting.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Lack of

I am running on empty again (lack of sleep). I have been busting my ass on several projects and I just hope they prove profitable. My boss and his ass kisser will be on the phone with me to review the projects. The fucked up thing is since the ass kisser was hired he has implemented my ideas. My boss wouldn't listen to me, so now this guy steals my ideas and coins them as his own. Whatever, all that will get flushed out down the road.

MIL is leaving on this Sunday, yeah. I will even take her to the airport. She was settled down today, but gods only knows what tomorrow brings. They are going to Universal Studios and I am to meeting the MIL and my family for dinner. We are staying in Santa Monica for the night.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007


The MIL was nice to me today, she must have read my blog. However I am still waiting for her to pull a Linda Blair on me.


Well the MIL made it back with a new tatoo. Her first and she still is insane by showing it to my boys. It's right above her giant taco.

I will be traveling more now, because of the new SOB we have hired. I am up to my ass in work and somehow steal away to post. I hope the work will prove profitable this year because I need the dinero. work + blog + meetings + god = a sane me.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

New York MIL

The MIL is driving me nuts. I didn't eat dinner last because of her double dipping the spoon. Also her loud New York voice is damaging my eardrums. I swear a combination of 3 boys and a New York MIL is enough to drive me to drink. However for now I remain sober.

She drove to Mexico today and we haven't heard from her. She drove my wife's car and she was suppose to check in. I hope she brings back the car in one piece.

Monday, January 01, 2007

hangover 2007

I ended up not going to my meeting, because my mother in-inlaw and my wife were giving me to much shit. We had the party and people were drinking wine and champagne. I was feeling a little out of place in my own house, however I kept drinking my diet coke. The party ended around 9:30pm and everyone left.

The neighbor across the street was having a party as well and my mother in-law wanted to go. My wife wanted to put the boys to bed, so I agreed to go wit my mother in-law. Everyone at the party was drunk and dancing. I could only stay there for 30 minutes and I left. When I got home I told my wife to go over to the party and I would stay with the kids. I ended up going to sleep around 11:30 pm. They got home at 2:00 am drunk. I was up early in the morning and still sober after another New Years Eve. They were hungover..