Monday, October 20, 2008


My meeting today went really well in my partnership of a solar product. I hope to get this job to help launch it. My job is still up in the air so we shall see. I am just keeping one foot in front of the other. I am also praying and stay close to AA.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

green grass

link from dadanoias

I am headed for Santa Monica tonight because I have a 8:30 am meeting. I am fighting to get these deals closed so my life will be easier. I will know this week if my job will still be in my hands.

My wife is at a fund raiser for a friend of ours who is dying of stage 4 cancer. She would love to have my problems instead of her inevitable death. I need to start being more grateful on a daily basis. I am a pretty lucky guy.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

one day at a time


I have been really busting my ass to try to get my sales up. The economy has not been helping me however there are still plenty of projects going on. I am hanging on by a thread for my job and the odds are in my favor to make my quota. I have 2 jobs left to get so we will see.

My wife is back to normal so that is good and the boys are good. I am still sober so that is also good. I just need to get some meetings under my belt.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

life unfair

Well the day my wife gets home is day my salary gets cut by a 1/4. My boss is a dick and he will get his down the road. My head has been spinning for the last several days. I got pissed at my sponsor and basically told him to go fuck himself. Of course I called him back several hours later to apologize. Maybe I need a meeting and some decent sleep. Worring about whats going to happen tomorrow is where I am, but that is a bad place for me.

My wife had a great trip to Italy but has been an asshole about the salary cut. So I wish she would go back to Italy.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

End of Road

Well my my wife isn't coming home till tomorrow night and my boss switched our meeting from Tuesday to tomorrow. I am basically fucked. I have some friends helping me I am just praying everything will go smooth.

I have to do an install tomorrow night for my boss so I wont even get to see my wife till Wednesday. I guess that is life. At least I am still sober and clean.

Saturday, October 11, 2008


I took a break from doing the dishes and took a quick web break. Pretty cool song and the beat is euro.

Sonique MP3

dadanoias link


2 football games and a soccer game and I am wiped out. This is getting harder to maintain, basically a single parent for 2 weeks. The end is close so I hope to pull through.

My boss the asshole wants to meet with me Monday morning. This sucks since he is flying in from out of town. If he tries to reduce my salary or let me go fuck him. I am tired of working for this alcoholic bitch anyways. He is a egotistical idiot. He has ripped me off for to many years now.

Thursday, October 09, 2008

obama plug

He stands 7½ inches tall, nearly 2 inches in diameter, with a golden color and firm, smooth feel. Made in the USA from the finest TPR rubber, phthalate-free, waterproof, with no batteries required. The Head O State will stand upright and last the whole night through. obama butt plug

I think the George Bush butt plug will sell the most because we will be feeling his fuck ups in our ass for along time.

Anyways I had a good day with the boys and everything went smooth. The house looks very messy so I guess we will clean it tomorrow night.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008


Well I won the battle of will with my 6 year old son. He ended up a school with out crying. I won this one but tomorrow the challenge begins again. I can feel it in the air.

Fire season is still here and we had a large one about 4 miles from the house today. I will take a photo next time, because I was to tired today. I am running on minimal energy. I dont want to sound like a baby, but this is a bitch.

Tuesday, October 07, 2008



Today was worse, my 6 year old is testing my limits. I will win over this test of parenthood and insanity. Again another melt down at school and I spoke with the principle and she said all our kids are extremely bright however they have won the battle with my wife. That has changed while she is in Rome I am whipping these boys into shape. I grounded my 6 year old all day to his room and I am hoping it has paid off. Tomorrow will be the answer to this question. I have my second wind so I am prepared to do it all again tomorrow if necessary. I am glad I am sober so I can deal with this life problem.

Monday, October 06, 2008

insane day

Damn if I can make without drinking through this I will pick up a chip for having your ass almost fall off. The day started last night when I got two flats on my car while going to the store to pick up bleech. Some punk kids put glass rapped up in duck tape and I hit it. So I could take my boys to school, but friends of ours said they would help. However my 2 youngest boys triped out and would not go. So a little later a tow truck picked me up and took me to the tire store. Shit I have to go.

Sunday, October 05, 2008

made it

Yesterday was a busy day and I was exhausted. I went to bed last night so early it felt good to be that tired. I needed all the sleep I can get. Two of the boys teams lost and my oldest son's football team won so they are in first place now.

Today on the agenda is clean and watch football games. The house is a mess and it has only been a few days since my wife left. I feel good but I can't go to my meeting tonight so that sucks. Maybe I will break out the big book a read some.

Friday, October 03, 2008

Burlesque Fetish

So how do the girls remain upbeat with no home and no income to speak of? By taking life advice from Oprah! tattle

Today went really good with the boys no blow outs and everyone has been relatively calm. The real test begins tomorrow when I have to scramble between 3 little league games. This is a tiresome thing being mommy and daddy.

Thursday, October 02, 2008

nuclear melt down

OMG today was a complete disaster, it started at 5:00 am when my wife said good bye to the boys. I thought someone died they cried like old women at at funeral. I seriously cant take this behavior. The little one refused to go to school so I ended up doing all my work tonight. One day at a time no shit.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

boot camp

It starts tomorrow at 6:00am when my wife heads for Rome. I am feeling better now and more confident to pull this off.

I am scrambling to get these bids done because the kids are going to be time mongers.