Monday, December 31, 2007

Happy New Year

Well the party is over and I am sober. Wow, there was a couple new people at our party and one of the mom's had her boobs almost hanging out. What an outfit it was or should I say barely of any fabric. The main thing is that my wife had fun and I hung with the men. They drank less than the women which blew my mind. The guys were basically light weights which was fine by me. I still felt uncomfortable with everyone drinking and I guess that it will never go away. Maybe the day I feel comfortable will be the day I start drinking again. Happy New Year blog buddies..

Sunday, December 30, 2007


I spent some of the day returning crap I got at Christmas. These were the worst lines I have seen at every store that I returned items. I was trying to keep my cool while others in line were bitching. I felt like saying we all have better thing to do so shut the hell up. Anyways I am headed to a meeting tonight so that is a good thing..

Saturday, December 29, 2007


I guess if I had an angel this would be mine. It maybe because it would be just my luck.

I have to start getting the house ready for our New Years party. My wife has made me a list and it's quite long. I really just want to be a bum today. I promise I will post photos.

Friday, December 28, 2007

sleep overs

Say no to your kids sleep over friends. My much beloved sleep is gone as quick as it came. This friend of my son's is a walking alarm clock. My head is killing me and I feel like shit. He was up all night and I am sure his parents got sleep.

Thursday, December 27, 2007

good day

I finished the flash presentation for work today, yeaaah. I can finally get a few days of down time. I want to go to a meeting tomorrow night just for the hell of it. I need the coins in my sobriety bank and meetings are the best way to get them.. I have one shot at this deal so I can't afford any dumbass mistakes.

We are having a New Years Eve party at our house and there will be drinking. I don't like the idea, but my wife shouldn't have to suffer because of me. Everyone we are inviting only drink a few, which is something I will never get.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007


I have downloaded this and it works right off my Blackberry. This product is truly cool and an alcoholics dream by watching what the hell is going on in my house while at work.

Monitor your home/office activities in realtime. Be sure of safety of your children when you are away. Motion detector – start recording when Mobiscope detects a disturbance. click link


This time of year I am always looking for a meeting. I use to drink a lot all the time, but the holidays it seemed to be in excess.

The boys had fun today opening their presents and my wife did as well. My wife got me some shirts and ties and the colors were horrible. She never seems to get me what I want, but I am not going to drink about it. So I took the boys to a park and we played football. It was fun seeing them enjoy themselves. Happy Holidays to all in blogland.

Sunday, December 23, 2007

getting sleep

I am finally getting some rest. I also working on my new company. I new to make a change however going it on your own is fearful. I also have a few more Christmas items to pick up. So dealing with the shoppers today. That young kid in my neighborhood is back out smoking bowls so there isn't anything I can do. If you told me I had to get sober at 18 I would have told you to go to hell.

Friday, December 21, 2007


Except Drink..

Another day at the office with a ego freak midget boss,. I will probably go to a meeting today because god knows it would be good for me.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

life is ok

I went to a phy dude for my middle son, It seems my wife and I are not on the same page. Which really sucks because now we have manipulative kids that get away with every thing. We know have to work harder to hold up the punishment all the way trough the punishment cycle. It was fun and I need to start to improve as a father and a husband..

Tuesday, December 18, 2007


Our economy is left for the birds. At least I haven't drank.

Monday, December 17, 2007


I knew lack of sleep and food would catch up. I feel so sick tonight that I could hardly eat. I am going to get some rest tonight.

The kid that's my neighbor smoked 4 bowls today, he doesn't want sobriety and that sucks.

The lump is a lymph node that is swollen under my arm. I need to get a biopsy at end of the week..

onion layers or wire layers

I guess pulling back the layers can be whatever you want as long something is being pulled back to see the real you. link mato

Sunday, December 16, 2007

meeting tonight

Tonight I went a meeting. I feel a lot better because I laughed most of the meeting. I realized that I have lost my laugh for over three weeks. For me if I am not laughing, then I am either isolating or building resentments.


I have been busting my ass on several projects that went south on me. My so called assistant but my shit on the back burner and now I am the fall guy for both projects. I was being told that both projects were ok and being ordered, however nothing was being done. I have felt depressed and I was not eating or sleeping. HALT was real and I felt it's effects more than ever. Isolation was the first thing to happen and my attendance at meetings was the second. So here I sit holding on to my sobriety.

Saturday, December 08, 2007


I have been working my ass off at work. My program has been slipping and I need to keep my program at a higher level.