Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Monday, January 28, 2008

back to NJ

I have to go back to New Jersey this week. I have to deal with the unions again.. I am sick of the this project..

The kid I have been taking to meetings has been driving me nuts. I feel like killing him sometimes. He acts like he doesn't take this shit seriously... We die out there.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

super sober hero

My kids and I have been getting along pretty damn good the last few days. I have to take them to the batting cages today, because spring baseball try outs are coming up in a few weeks. It is strange but there are try outs for little league baseball out here. In our area the kids have personal coaches etc.

Friday, January 25, 2008


My middle son has issues and we have been trying not to deal with it. He has anxiety issues and it has kept him out of school. It was a family problem and we have hide it for about a year. He has missed more than two months of school. We have now gone to the grade school and they are helping us. It is even a public school and we have been blown away on how helpful they have been. It also helps that my son is brilliant he scored 100% on state of California tests. He was out the whole time the class was preparing, which blew away all the teachers. I think he is one of us though and that what I am fearful of.

Thursday, January 24, 2008


I have been battling depression for several weeks, with some days worse than others. I have been the snail or crab looking for a better shell. This is tough because it always has in one of the card decks a suicide card.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008


I am not sure about this one..cowboy bar link you decide..

My youngest boy had a fever of 105 degrees last night. We finally got it down with an ice bath. Thank god I was not drinking.

peter pan

For all those who wouldn't believe in Peter Pan, he is alive and well. He is still fighting his Captain Hook. I need a meeting.

link for Peter Pan

Monday, January 21, 2008

the man

If I only had a 1/1000th of this mans drive and conviction in life.

Barbie Dolls

what happened to barbie? Barbie link

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Esposa Familia Vermont

Video of our trip to Vermont...

extreme sleep

[Like any extreme activity, it requires the nerves of steel, good choice of timing, location and the absence of suspicious cops. All this however is easier to achieve, because you are, well... asleep, so you can trust the unseen powers to take care of the rest. Long & restful sleep is by no means guaranteed, but perhaps somebody will take your picture and you'll wake up famous]. link via: (mo geek news)

tag you fall

Technorati stats are incorrect and if you challenge them your rating will fall. They are a bunch of blow hards at their corporate office. Don't question big brother. technorati

Other than dealing with the three piece suit technorati clowns, I had a good day. It is baseball practice for the boys. I have to get them ready for baseball try outs. Sobriety isn't to bad. I have quality problems today.

Friday, January 18, 2008


Addiction is sometimes like having a caged animal inside of you.

Thursday, January 17, 2008


I have been dealing with that young neighbor kid who is trying to get sober. Yikes it was been grueling since he is only 18. He has been locked up since he was 14.

I have been interviewing admin assistants again. I hopefully will have someone hired by Monday.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Beijing's penis emporium

"On a dark street in Beijing but my appetite seems to have gone for a stroll outside. Nancy has brought out a whole selection of delicacies. They are draped awkwardly across a huge platter, with a crocodile carved out of a carrot as the centrepiece. Nestling beside the dog's penis are its clammy testicles, and beside that a giant salami-shaped object. "Donkey," says Nancy. "Good for the skin..." She guides me round the penis platter. "Snake. Very potent. They have two penises each." I did not know that. "BBC link

Saturday, January 12, 2008

hate NY

Our flight from JFK was diverted to Ontario Ca, The fog was bad in San Diego so the Airport was closed. Now I am stuck on a bus with a bunch of ass hole New Yorkers headed to the San Diego. Several cut in line and if I wasn't with the kids I would have kicked their asses. I did have open my mouth to them and they wouldn't look at me.I get mad as shit when people don't follow the rules, or should I say my rules.

Friday, January 11, 2008

home tomorrow

Tomorrow we will be home.. Thank god. Our flight leaves JFK at 5:30pm..

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

headed for Connecticut

We are leaving tomorrow for Connecticut. That we will be the final run to our trip. I am wanting to go home no meetings here.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

still in vermont

I am still here with tons of snow.

Monday, January 07, 2008


I am in Vermont right now and it reminds me of California. That is the people, laid back and from the 60's kind of liberal ideals. That is fine with me. I was hoping to catch a meeting, however the place we are in a remote area. There are hippie communes close by however that won't work..

Sunday, January 06, 2008

not fun

This place is driving me nuts, I am in the Adirondacks and there is still a lot of snow. We are in a small town and I am getting stir crazy, plus my wifes family is driving me nuts.

Saturday, January 05, 2008


I am at my in laws house in New Jersey. Yikes I thought this was a vacation. I really was opening this would be relaxing. We are heading to up state NY tomorrow which will be a 5 hours with 7 kids, wow.

Thursday, January 03, 2008

half me

I am down in the dumps today and I am not sure why. Well I think I know why its this project from last year 07 that I keep wanting to carry. I need to give it to god like the blue book says. Why is the book blue? Does anyone know the answer to that? AA trivia.

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

my mouth

Damn, I have to watch my mouth at work. I told another girl in the office that my assistant was a lazy ass and how I wished she (the other girl) was my assistant. Well that got back to my assistant and all hell broke loose. Hell it was the truth however my assistant felt bad. I apologized and blamed my words on the pressure I am under. I am not a good liar and I think she knows that, but whatever. I am damn sure not going to drink over her lazy ass.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008


I stayed sober through 2007 and made it through New Years sober. Now living sober for today starts again as we begin 2008. I am going to make more meetings this year and do my steps again. I am also going to make more calls on the phone list. My sobriety is a gift from god and alcoholics anonymous and can be taken away at anytime. link Cool site check it out. icon addicts