Tuesday, July 31, 2007

robot meets zorine queen of the nudists

The year was 1935. In an effort to stave off the dismal economic slump that had made so many Depression-era San Diegans think of their city as a culturally stagnating dump, the San Diego City Council attempted to rally the spirits of its citizens by holding a massive exposition, which they hoped would boost tourism and jump start the faltering local economy.

The 1935 San Diego Exposition played host to hundreds of exhibits of historical, musical, artistic, scientific and industrial worth. And booking either end of the alphabetical list of attractions were the two headliners: Alpha the Robot and Zorine, Queen of the Nudists.

ectoplasmosis link

I am trying to keep my mind off of me.

Monday, July 30, 2007


The exporitorium was cool however I am home now. I am very tired from the drive, I will catch up tomorrow.

condom flies

CONCERT-GOERS at a Dutch festival have been treated to an unusual sight: a hot air balloon 40 metres high, shaped like a condom, drifting across the sky. The balloon, with the words "Vrij Veilig" — Dutch for "Safe Sex" — emblazoned on it, was launched by the public health service at the festival in Lichtenvoordein.


Sunday, July 29, 2007

Leaving San Fran

Today we are leaving San Francisco. For all it's beauty summer here is just to cold. The whole time has been jacket weather. I prefer the weather back in San Diego which is shorts and T shirts. The kids had a melt down last night at the sports store which I ended up spending two hundred dollars on 2 jerseys and a jacket.I have to catch up on the blogs because it is hard enough just posting from my blackberry. I hope to be home at a reasonable hour.

Saturday, July 28, 2007


This was post game at the San Francisco Giants ATT stadium. The post game show was for "UNTIL" they find a cure for aids. It's a non profit organization funded by the SF Giants. It provides funding for aids research. The whole show was great and the fireworks were better than the 4th of July.

San Francisco Giants

We missed Barry Bonds home run last night because we were on the wrong bus. My wife use to live here so she had it all figured out. We ended up at the game around the bottom of the 2nd inning. That sucked for me I wanted to get a cab. However the game was great and there were a lot of home runs. The kids had fun and thats what counts. I am trying to get my wife to go back to alanon because she was happy when she was going. We are off to the Muir woods today. The fireworks at the end of the game were better than the Fourth of July it was for "UNTIL" aids awareness check out my youtube lash505.

Friday, July 27, 2007

Giants Game

Tonight we are going to the San Francisco Giants baseball game. My boy's are excited and so am I. Yesterday is in the past and today starts a new day. I hope my wife has a fun day. I will do anything to make her feel happy today. Last night I took the boy's to golden gate park to throw the baseball. They had a blast and got to see a skunk. I love my boys.My wife had some alone time so I hope it helped. I am posting from my blackberry.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

lost in San Francisco

This my first vacation since being sober. There has been a lot of yelling from my wife at the kids. Its driving me mad, because it reminds me of how my mom was when I was growing up. I feel like running away, but there is no where to go. I would like to hit a meeting, but she would be more angry. Tomorrow is another day, another chance to be sober.

Monday, July 23, 2007


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Saturday, July 21, 2007


I was the leader at a mens meeting last night. I talked but I also cried. I am not a crybaby, however I felt embarrassed. I feel better today, but emotionally worn out.

Thursday, July 19, 2007


Denver international airport is a pain in the ass. I am sitting in the smoking lounge looking at all the strange people. There is a guy who has probably 500 ear rings in his ear. Sitting with a black woman that has grey hair.They both look like meth addicts. Then there are these groups of guys that probably follow nascar drinking multitudes of beer. They have their richard petty sunglasses on. There is a salior probably heading to his ship talking on his cell phone.Two marines that look like my sons grown up. They are in kami's probably heading to Iraq. There is a lot of people that have a distant look on their face's. I am leaving because all the smoke is making my head hurt.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

mc rocks

We had a blast and mc ate like a pig, but so did I. It's so cool that I can talk with someone that I feel like I have known for a long time. MC is my friend.

I don't know who that other asshole pig is in the picture.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

close call in boulder

I had a big business dinner tonight and one of the guys remembered my drinking days. He kept egging me on to have a drink. I said that I didn't want anything and plus I don't drink. He kept it going most of the night. He was drunk and in disbelief that I didn't drink. I wish that it would have ended earlier. This is the worse postion I have been cornered into in the three years of sobriety. It made sense to drink something to show him and the other guys that I could drink. The reality is that I can't drink ever again or at least for today. .

Sunday, July 15, 2007


Ok, here you go my new chimnea. The party was great except for the wine and rolling rock beer that was at my party. Again 2 bottles of wine and a six pack of rolling rock didn't take me out. Step 1 I am an alcoholic so I can't drink and it is as simple as that. The good part was the fire and I burned a lot of logs. It makes me feel good inside to be around a fire. It reminds me of my grandfather who burned his trash everyday and while on vacation as a child I spent my time around him and the fire.

Saturday, July 14, 2007

second lifemare

These assholes at second life are still trying to bill me even after I canceled 3 months ago. They are making their money by ripping of the consumer with over-charges. Second life is a rip off. Also read the Los Angeles Times article about the failing business's in Second Life click link

We are having my party tonight and I have to clean the house and the backyard. The kids are watching TV and I am getting pissed that they aren't doing anything to help. They better get moving soon because the friends are coming over soon. I got a new large chimnea photo to come. There is something spiritual about a fire.

Friday, July 13, 2007


Today I am one year older. Wow, I feel sooo old. My wife was a bitch tonight.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

los angeles

I am in los angeles stuck in traffic and I decided to post on my blog. I completed 4 and 5, yes I feel a surge of relief. It seems like I have grown today, however I will keep a few of the defects, because it is who I am. Today I am happy to be me.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

blacberry 8803 Sprint

I am glad that I got this blackberry, it's by far the best blackberry I have ever had.The wierd thing is that on blogger buzz they say the only way to post to your blog is by using some blogger email address. The way I do it is by just logging on to my g account via blackberry, easy..

well I am doing my program writing every night, is there a end? I sure hope so.

Monday, July 09, 2007

step work

I am working through the 4th and 5th steps. It's time now and I am ready to clean house. I have had a lot on my plate as well as the unwillingness to put the stick down until now. After drinking and using so long the cob webs have finally cleared and now I can have a clear head in what I need to do. I am meeting with my sponsor this week to do the 4th and 5th step.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

verify WTF

I don't know about this one..link worse than failure

I was at church today when I was looking at blog posts and I came across meg's post link to see. It hit me how powerful prayer can be and it doesn't matter about your surroundings. That bathroom tested my faith, would I have got down on my knee's? I hope I would have.

Saturday, July 07, 2007

jr pewee football

My oldest son is playing football, yes. We went to the coaches meeting today and I saw more fathers in tank tops then I have ever seen before. Ego was so thick in the room that I found myself gasping for oxygen. These overweight slobs were trying to impress others by their weight and of lack of muscle. Whatever, it was more a guy bullshit thing than anything else. It's just weird being sized up by people who probably never played football. I did play through Junior year and then found something more profitable dealing drugs.

Thursday, July 05, 2007


Isn't that a song, anyways I am feeling good and busting my ass at work. I have kept myself focused on what I need to do in my life. Well almost I need to do some work on the steps again, but with the boys, work and the wife it makes for no time. I need to make time and get moving, because when things are moving too good there has to be something coming up around the corner. Whats around the corner is why I need to prepare. This involves adding a meeting and hitting the big book.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007


Testing the waters again for an alcoholic or a addict is like playing a losing game. The reality is you will end up dead.

I have been working on bids all week and I have one left. My assistant does not know how to make an excel spread sheet. She is young and was hired by my boss. He wants all the staff under 27 so that he will feel young again. It is like his fountain of youth. So I have to do all my own shit..

Sunday, July 01, 2007


Every year in June the june bugs fly all over inside our meeting. See our meeting is in a old farm house/barn and there is no heating or air conditioning. We have to keep the windows open and they swam inside our meeting. Everyone laughs at people's reactions to being basically attacked by june bugs. It is great to hear laughter in a room with so much pain.