I have this virus chasing my ass around for several days. I have a big meeting this Friday and I have to be at the top of my game. So I need to shake this virus.
No drama today so I am cool.
Well I completed my tasks today in the yard and didn't end up drinking over it. I had to re-seed in areas because of my female lab that likes to pee on each square foot of grass. She is a fat lazy dog but she stayed with me while I was drinking. She actually caught most of my verbal abuse because she she couldn't talk back. That was only sometimes because I swear she talked after a couple bottles of crown royal.
I am getting ready to go to bed because I have been staying up way to late.
If I decide to pick up that first bottle it wont end till I am at the toilet passed out. There will also be several empty bottles near by. Even though the BB says pick up the first drink that 1st drink doesn't have to be from a glass.
I am cleaning the house today per my wife's instructions as well as fixing up the back yard by planting flowers and seeding the grass. Doing chores like these keep me out of my head till a meeting.
I am working on a name for my company "green company". I am hoping to make a change in my life as well as to change the way we use materials.
I am still with the little man but I am getting ready to make my break. He has been a bitch to me. He has cut off my company credit card while I am traveling leaving me to pick up the expenses. I can't afford to do this again. I have been going to meetings and praying so that is good.
I went to a meeting tonight and that was good because I needed it badly. I have a lot going on in my life and I need to be prepared to face my fears. The only steps I know how to take in fighting my fears are through AA and God.. Wow it is that simple..
I am doing ok... just waiting for Monday to be over. That is the day when everything will get nasty between me and my boss. Meetings and Praying are all I can do for now. I am really thankful for GOD and AA, because the alternative would be so much worse.
I have been battling my boss for my job and it has been a nightmare. I was slapped on 100% commish and that is not good when you have a family. So I have been scrambling trying get my new project up and running.
I have been praying hard and keeping one foot in front of the other.