Friday, August 31, 2007
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
My wife is out of town and I am putting the boys to bed. What a day it has been, phoenix in the morning and I flew back this afternoon. I came home just in time for my wife to go to lax airport. She will be in oregon till friday afternoon. Life can be rewarding and draining at the same time. Photo is of my oldest boy in san fran..
Monday, August 27, 2007
wow life feels crazy as hell for me. the three boys are making me feel like a circus act intead of a father. I just am trying my best to stay focused on being the best dad I can be.. I wish things would slow down just a nano minute.
Sunday, August 26, 2007
I don't feel like going to a meeting tonight. I have been taking naps all day. I think my body is basically shutting down from the weeks of limited sleep. I was looking forward to getting more organized at my office. I guess that will have to wait till tomorrow unless I get a second wind.
My youngest boy has the ultimate black eye. It is a shinner that actually shines pretty bright. My middle son pitched him a soccer ball and the bat bounced back and nailed him in the eye. wow..
Saturday, August 25, 2007
I have been going nuts about this new job, everything is pointing at take the job. I have been having those god things happen lately. They are freaky and not coincidental. I am happy things are good today.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
I met for lunch today the person who I would manage at my new job. She was nice, and your typical california hippy. I would be able to work with her so that is a good thing. They are suppose to make an offer next week.
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
This is the best surf spot in southern california. It is also home to san onfre nuke power plant, the dolly parton's of socal. I was driving through there once and it was raining clouds of ash. I wonder if I am glowing.. Wow that is why I drive fast through there..
I am feeling better after the million dollar man kicked me in the balls and then ran away. I will have more opportunities to get million dollar projects as long as I am sober.
Monday, August 20, 2007
I lost the millon dollar project, and feel sick about the whole thing. However it wasn't suppose to be. I am happy just to see my son having fun.
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Another hot day in socal and the kids were feeling the heat. My son's team won 6 to 1 and so far they are undefeated. My boy is playing the closest to side where I am filming. I don't know to much about soccer, so I don't know the positions. Shit that sounds bad..
Friday, August 17, 2007
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
My oldest son is playing the sick role at football practice. I can't take it any more. He has the talent but not the drive inside of him. He wants the glory with half the work. He has quit several sports, because he grows tired of the work it takes. My wife and I had a fight because she says he has a lack of esteem however I think he is just lazy and spoiled.
Monday, August 13, 2007
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Well we have just 2 soccer games today. The football games don't start till the end of august. Our anniversary is coming up next week and it will be 16 years. We are on rocky roads but we need to stay strong. We are seeing a marriage counselor next week. More work with hopefully new tools.
Friday, August 10, 2007
I am back at the sports thing with the boys. Here is the deal, we have 2 soccer games and a football game to attend every saturday for the next several month's. I am going to my oldest son's football practice tonight. The two other boy's are playing soccer. The costs associated with each sport is around $500.00 per kid. Thats a lot of money when you're kids play spring, summer and winter ball. Actually the cost incurred is around $4500.00 total. The logistic's part is a nightmare, so I stay out of that and follow my wife's dirrection. <p>
I have always been against cloning however I am thinking it might be good for some parents.
Thursday, August 09, 2007
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
This has been a crazy ass ride. I have been at the heap of the bottom and now I am moving towards the top. I make sure my ass does not stay too far from the program. I have all of my life today to thank for because of god and the program. Another part to the puzzle is going to bible study, which helps me keep the hands off of the control panel. When I take the controls in my life I always take a nose dive. I held off the controls of my life today and things are great.
I feel ok today. I think what has been wrong is that I have too mas on my plate. I have been wearing a multitude of hats at my job. I feel spread to thin so if you want to call that fear, I would say you are right. I get frustrated with any with any changes that effect my control at the job. Did I say control..yikes. I need to get on my knees and pray.
Monday, August 06, 2007
Saturday, August 04, 2007
This photo makes me sick. The only person that I am concerned about in this photo is the young child. What's the damage caused by this asshole, god only knows. I am glad to be sober today.
No sex, please, you're a carnivore. A new phenomenon in New Zealand is taking the idea of you are what you eat to the extreme. Vegansexuals are people who do not eat any meat or animal products, and who choose not to be sexually intimate with non-vegan partners whose bodies, they say, are made up of dead animals.
Thursday, August 02, 2007
The company I went on the job interview with wants to hire me. Shit I don't know what to do now. So, either I take the new job or stay with the current job..yikes