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Other than dealing with the three piece suit technorati clowns, I had a good day. It is baseball practice for the boys. I have to get them ready for baseball try outs. Sobriety isn't to bad. I have quality problems today.
I am at my in laws house in New Jersey. Yikes I thought this was a vacation. I really was opening this would be relaxing. We are heading to up state NY tomorrow which will be a 5 hours with 7 kids, wow.
I stayed sober through 2007 and made it through New Years sober. Now living sober for today starts again as we begin 2008. I am going to make more meetings this year and do my steps again. I am also going to make more calls on the phone list. My sobriety is a gift from god and alcoholics anonymous and can be taken away at anytime. link
Well the party is over and I am sober. Wow, there was a couple new people at our party and one of the mom's had her boobs almost hanging out. What an outfit it was or should I say barely of any fabric. The main thing is that my wife had fun and I hung with the men. They drank less than the women which blew my mind. The guys were basically light weights which was fine by me. I still felt uncomfortable with everyone drinking and I guess that it will never go away. Maybe the day I feel comfortable will be the day I start drinking again. Happy New Year blog buddies..
I spent some of the day returning crap I got at Christmas. These were the worst lines I have seen at every store that I returned items. I was trying to keep my cool while others in line were bitching. I felt like saying we all have better thing to do so shut the hell up. Anyways I am headed to a meeting tonight so that is a good thing..
I went to a phy dude for my middle son, It seems my wife and I are not on the same page. Which really sucks because now we have manipulative kids that get away with every thing. We know have to work harder to hold up the punishment all the way trough the punishment cycle. It was fun and I need to start to improve as a father and a husband..
All this weekend the kids were talking about what they are going to be for halloween. I love this this time of year and when I was drinking it was just another daily celebration. I use to get pissed off when I would have to answer the door for the trick or treaters. I would have to come inside from the back yard to answer the door. The back yard was where my stash and coolers filled with beers were located. It was basically my heaven behind my house. I had 4 bottles of crown in 750 mils hidden in sprinkler's pump stations. Hell I also had 4 cooler buried in the ground with tops that had clued on dirt and sticks. I was stealth when I was drinking until everyone knew I was drunk. I changed the cooler' locations every couple of week.
Today I don't have to sorry about all that bullshit in my hesd
Wow trying to find the right assistant has it's problems. First off 70% of the applicants had 4 or more typo's. What the hell is that, what were these people thinking, spell check? Anyways I have it down to 6 and the interviews start on Monday and end on Tuesday. By then I shall have a assistant. I hope they make my life a little easier because I am feeling a little lost.
Football, baseball and soccer games for the boys all day today. However we have the rain factor out there today, so please god let it rain.
I had to get milk this morning for the boys, so this photo was fitting.
I am taking the boys and their friends to play football. I told them I would yesterday and I have to keep my promise. That's part of the whole deal now sober, I keep my commitments.
I am at the airport waiting for my flight to board.. I am happy to get the hell at out of florida and go home to southern california. I had good meetings and now I get to hire my own assistant. Their job description will be to primarily keep me organized. That will be a task in itself. I can't wait to see my boy's.
Well I have the interview early next week and I must fly to the NY. Everything is starting to move forward and I feel like going backwards. What the hell is that all about. This will be a big move out of my comfort level, so it compounds everything. I am really trying to stay positive.. I have been praying a lot and that isn't a bad thing.
I had fun watching and playing baseball with our neighbors boys. We sat and watched my youngest son practice and then we all went to another field to throw the ball. You could tell how much they missed having a dad.
I am in the isolation stage again in my program. I don't know if it's the lack of hours or the lack of effort. I must keep moving ahead and add another meeting during the week.
What happens to the survivors left behind after an alcoholic has his last drink or an addict his last fix? They move on as best they can and others help raise their kids. While the alcoholic looks down wishing for another chance that won't happen.
I got a call today from a friend, her husband died from drinking about a couple of months ago. She told me that her boys wanted me to teach them how to throw a baseball and wanted to go to the baseball fields with me and my boys. I told her I would be happy to take them starting tomorrow. Her husband never taught them, however it was on his list. I am so sad for her boys.
I was hoping to relax tonight however I have to work on a strategic marketing plan for an opportunity. I am sitting at my sons practice trying to catch up with life.
Let's see daave was right..Hungry: My eating habits almost don't exist. Angry: a little at other people. Lonely: All the time. Tired: Whats not being tired.. Wow, I will start today by eating.. It's easy to forget to look for the signs, but shit I have them all. I think I need a overhaul on my program.
Finally the weekend is here and I can play catch up on my work. I can also catch up to my blog peps. I feel a little stressed with the job thing. I feel it is going south, so oh well. The first football game for my son is tomorrow. I hope he does well or just has fun. The coach is from the barrio so he thinks he is a tough guy. I hope the kids get past his ego and just play the game. Whatever it's out of my hands, for now.
I had a third conversation with a global company that wants to hire me. The position is very good and very prestigious for my industry. I am excited about the potential, however the offer will be sent to me this week. I am sure we will go back and forth until we agree or disagree. Whether I agree to take the job or not, it has been good for my self esteem. I am in this situation because of god and that I did what was asked of me by my sponsor and other's in the program. I never did what I wanted, because that would have been drinking.
When I was drinking I knew god wasn't there for me. Why would god not help a person like me and why did I suffer as well as all the people around me. I do not know the answers to this, but I do know that god was there and I was not. Now things are going good in my life because of god and the program. It is simple as, if I believe in both as much as I can then the odds are that I will be sober tomorrow.
I used cheap labor to do some tile work at my house. The job they did sucked and I had to rip some of the tile out and all of the base boards. I was so pissed off I thought I was going to have a heart attack. I ended up going outside and played catch with my younger son. After I calmed down, I went up stairs, paid them and told them to leave. I have been redoing their work all day and I am exhausted. I have to paint the base boards tonight.
A guy in our home group had a call I never want to take. The highway patrol called him to say that his teenage daughter died in a car crash. She was not wearing her seat belt and was thrown from the car. Also they are going to do a toxicology test. She was driving the car.
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