quick smoking

Thits is my next deal that I am going to quit. The key word is going to.

Worked all yesterday and pretty much 4 more hours today, It will be great to have a weekend soon that will be relaxing.

no sleep

Ok, lets do the math 3-6 = 3 hours so therefore 3hr x alcoholic = drink. No coffee for me that late anymore. Shit, I have so much to do today.

why

What the hell am I still up for.. Oh yeah I drank coffee late today and now I am being punished by the caffeine god.

I am listening to Jefferson Airplane right now and white rabbit is on.. Wow I am remember when I dropped window pane and listened to this song.. Those were the bad days, but I am sober and the door man can kiss my ass.

step work

Well I guess its time for me to start the steps again, because it just feels right. I am still up in the air on the job thing but today I feel optimistic. I am just working non stop in trying to get more business. So the more you put in the barrel the more comes out. That is the case unless there is a hole, oh god I hope there isn't a hole. See what I mean, Steps, steps, steps...

rough times

I have been on a ride of my life and really testing my sobriety. You name and it went wrong with me in the last several weeks. I am hanging by my ass on my job, but my family is right by my side. So that is the good thing, but the people at the meeting I attend seem to avoid me like the plague..

birthday

Well it is my other birthday today and I have been sober for over 4 years. Therefore I love the program and god, because without one of these I would have been dead by now. I think I was born on a Friday, pretty scary.

We have growing number of people coming into our rehabs in socal. Are they looking for a better life or is it just a fad. Some of the people seem to think that this is a game and for a guy like me thats a resentment real quick. I have seen people die trying to stay sober so this shit is no joke.

Visual Thesaurus

Very cool.. check it out

doing the thing

I am doing what I am suppose to do and staying sober. The guy I was helping is now homeless and back at the drugs and the bottle. He will be going to jail soon, because I see it on his face.