Sunday, June 11, 2006
"NEW" 3/12 Program
I having been working the 3/12 program and it has been working fine for me. Or better yet I have been doing the working life steps. Seems confusing, well I will simplify the process. The first thing you do is get through the first three steps and then you sit on step four for awhile. You then attend a step study once a week and don't do anything. You then pick up a bible study class. You talk to other alcoholics divulging your skeletons until you feel more at ease. You talk to your sponsor on a daily bases to keep you on track. Do you feel better now? If not, the reason is you have to finish the steps and work with other alcoholics. If you truly want the promises the steps have to be done and you must sponsor another alcoholic.
Ok having said that where does the family fit into this new ever changing schedule. I spoke to a few wives of people in the program and their husbands are either at the horse track or a meeting. Too many meetings can kill a family and not enough can kill you. The balance I believe is through your higher power. Back to the steps you need to complete them sooner than later, because the longer you wait the harder it gets to finish. I should have done them sooner, because the pile just seems to grow.
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Good Day
Today we had two soccer games going on. One was my 4 year old and the other my 7 year old. My youngest son is the natural athlete and the middle one is the aggressive one. The middle one is like me and he likes to do things his way. My oldest son is the intellect and at 9 he has been tested at a 6th/7th grade reading/math level. He gets that from his mother. They all have a fairly normal life now since I am sober. One of the biggest things I see now at 2 years is the chain being broken. It is something I get to do for myself and my family. It is not always easy being sober, but knowing that the bulldozers and wrecking balls are right behind me seems to help keep everything fresh. Today I guess I am just thankful to be alive. Note: This gif was floating around.
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Memories
I can't help but wonder what my kids remember from my drinking days. I really hope they don't remember walking over their dad laid passed out in the middle of the floor. The falling down and splitting the head open or having to go to hospital because their dad needed medical treatment. Memories for me are still painful even after a couple years. The difference is that they didn't see me fall today or pass out, because today I am sober.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Love at First Bite
This couple is wacked. I have heard of tattoos, jewelry, etc for showing your bond of commitment, but this is over the edge. Read their story.
Monday, June 05, 2006
Kids Meltdown
They just could make it another 4 hours. They where all crying for mom ma. Geez I didn't do anything, I guess they are just anxious for her to get home.
Kid Shows
Are the Japanese corrupting our kids? I spent time analyzing the shows my kids watch. Robot Boy is a strange one and I kept looking for the hidden messages. They have young girls with short dresses that blow up with wind. I think they are a little sick and border being rated xxx.
Japan Ad Designers Rock
This is one of the paths I didn't take, advertising. Also an american design firm actually designed the ad.
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Weekend Almost Done
I have made it through the weekend still sober after watching my three boys. It has been typical, expecting something worse than it turns out to be. The expectations are an on going problem that I continue to work on. I am really happy today because I organized my work week, cleaned the house and played with the boys. I didnt have to hardly raise my voice and for that I am grateful.
Saturday, June 03, 2006
Wife Gone
My wife is out of town attending her grandmothers 90th birthday. I am home alone with the three boys. I have a new respect for my wife, because being dad the taxi is killing me. Today I had two different soccer games and a birthday party and a play date. All this was accomplished by the seat of ass. I used almost a tank of gas today shuttling back and forth. I ended the day by taking my kids to my sponsor’s house for a swim. It was the first time he met my kids. It ended up being pretty cool. I have kept my kids sheltered from AA. I believe they are too young to understand as well as they would blow my anonymity. Finally we ended up at Baskin Robbins eating ice cream and laughing. Today I am sober and only have quality problems.
Friday, June 02, 2006
Out
I am running into more and more people going out on meds. They don’t pick up that first drink, however picking up a bottle of pills and that isn't different. We are alcoholics and addicts and gravitate to things that will take us away from our life. Ones over the counter and the other ones behind the counter. It was interesting talking to some of the people, they seemed to all have a few things in common, they all were distant from there higher power and from meetings. I just thank god for what ever reason, I am a sober person today.
YUK.....
10 Things To Make You Want to Puke
Submitted by Amused and Bemused on Thu, 2006-06-01 07:37. :: Blog Posting
What is the weirdest thing you ever ate? I can eat almost everything as my big frame can attest, but there are limits to even my gluttony.
I realize that foods that one eats and enjoys are culture based and the love of sushi, kimchi, and a rare steak are cultivated based on where you were raised, but some things are just plain disgusting (at least to my plebian brain).
Here are my choices for 10 the Weirdest Things That People Eat:
Burning Man
What a fucked place I went there for a short time and left. I was still drinking and using however this place was a little to free of the sex for me. I was there 3-4 hours and then bolt. You can feel the devil breathing on you at this place.
Thursday, June 01, 2006
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