forgive

My sponsor asked me if I would be ok if my dad died tomorrow. I hope so.. I haven't talked to the man since I have been sober and thats been 2 years and 9 months, but who is counting, right? I have been through a lot growing up and it doesn't matter who has had it worse or better. I don't really give a shit about that, because what matters is what I do with my shit not others. I don't think there is anything left inside of me for compassion, or any desire to open dialog. The truth is that my dad died along time ago inside of me.