coffee bitch

I have three boys and a norme for a wife. All my boys are under 8 years old so any damage was minimal. I am glad for that, but it seems they got on with life and I seem to be left behind in somé way. I feel like I am really in this thing for life. I have accepted that I am an alcoholic but this life thing sucks. Not so much the drinking but just the way I think. Well this is what I get for not moving on with my fourth step. Sit in the pain long enough and you will drink. That's what they say anyways.