coffee bitch

Man I guess this is what they call depression. I feel like crawling in a hole to hide away. I need to just find some darkness. I hate saying depression because I some how feel as though I am weak, lazy etc. I am just a person who wants to feel good about life. Hell I have been sober for almost a year and a half I should feel young again and full of energy. Instead I feel like a tired old man who barely can take a step with out being winded.