saved

I am saving this chair for my neighbor. His kids are coming over today after school, which is about now. I am leaving a little early to help my wife with all the boys. The mother has to prepare everything for the funeral for her husband. She wants to make it special for her children. I am still saddened for the kids loss. I needed a new look today for my blog since all this has been going on..

death

I have been helping a friend of ours get her husband into a rehab center. We had the intervention set for today and his bed was ready at the rehab detox center as well. We just ran out of time. He died last night. No one expected that he would die so soon. He had been on a binge for awhile. We were just hours short and my heart is broken for his wife and two boys. They play sports with my sons and today they are fatherless because of this disease. I am just so sad today.

Recovery Bra

Part bra, part sculpture, part social disturbance. As a vague description, we'll call it the 'nerve' bra, but it's really so much more. The base bra in this example is a nude seamless type, encouraging the illusion that the skin is exposed and the light is coming from within the body. click link

memorial day

We went to the aircraft carrier The Midway and walked the whole aircraft carrier. It was huge, like a floating city. There were vets up on the flight deck talking about their missions. It was so cool listening to these guys talk, that I wanted to bring one home because it is like a walking history book. I love the guys who fight for us to give us the opportunity to live free. Hats office to the men in service, they are the big dogs.

cake night

Tonight I will take my cake for 3 years of sobriety. I always get nervous, so I will ask god to do the talking for me.

meetings

I am dying for a meeting and it seems like I am running on a empty tank of gas. I have had a lot of shit going on in the last couple weeks mother's day and a convention took out my sunday night meeting. However I shall be there tomorrow night, thank god.

marriage

I am happy to be sober, because drinking can take a lot of things away, including your life.

friday night

We all went to my son's baseball party at the pizza place. The kid's had a blast and yes some of the fathers decided to drink. The fathers who drank became knowledge tree's of baseball. It is amazing how alcohol makes you so smart. Anyways I had fun fucking with them as well as another father who didn't drink. I was unsure if he was in the program, but if not I give him credit for stopping. It is funny because I recently met another guy who quit and isn't in the program. However, I need the program with the care of god to be able to make it another day.

trips

It is amazing how vegas lingers on in my mind. I have been home for over 24 hours and still the shit is in my mind. That city is not for me in sobriety. The place has all the elements to take me out.

My boys are doing great and they seem bigger just in a few days of being gone. That is why it is so important to make the most out of each minute I have with them, instead of taking time for granted. I am taking my belated cake this sunday for my time sober..

back home

I am very tired from standing up for over 10 hours a day at the convention. It's late I am tired. Sleep after Lost episode.

day 5

I am now at the airport waiting on my steak fajita lunch. As I look around I am one of the few not drinking. I thank god and the program for today..My flight is leaving vegas in a hour..

vegas day 4

Wow everyting is starting to look good here the drinks, the women and the money. My time is consumed with business meetings and no time for a meeting. One more day and I will win this battle. I am in my booth right now..back to work.

vegas again

I am back in vegas at another convention. Its hot as hell here and there is nothing of value. Eat, drink and sex are what everyone is looking for and not in that order. I will be leaving next wednesday and it wont come soon enough. I am taking my 3 year cake next sunday, because I have to keep my business rolling. No photo because I am using my blackberry. Thank god for the blackberry.

not alone

I had a pretty good day, being 3. I talked to some people in my home group, who made me feel good about myself. It's a long road ahead, but the guy next to my side is my sponsor. So as long as I do what I am suppose to do, another day of sobriety will be waiting for me.

3 years

Well tomorrow will bring me three years of sobriety. It's been a long three years, but life sure feels good today. Today I have my family, God and AA. Each of these are important to me, because with out one I have none. I have been giving each of these three things most of my time. They are what keep me balanced. Three years ago I would have never believed that life could be this good sober. It is amazing how this program truly works, I am in awe. The blogging has really help me even though people find it to be a unorthodox part of the program. You find whatever works and hold on to it tight and tomorrow your dreams will come true.

steps

I came close to knocking the shit out of one of my son's asst coaches. The guy has been screwing with my boy's swing from day one. The guy walks like he has a shit in his pants. His arms swinging like a chimp and acting like he is a bad ass. I know one punch and this bitch would be crying. Man, just thinking about makes me feel like fighting. Any ways back to the steps.

couch

I am just happy to believe in god, aa and being sobriety.

shopping spree

Oh by the way I won $1000.00 playing black jack. I gave it to my wife for mothers day and told her to go on a shopping spree. See it's not all about me anymore.

airport

I am sitting at the airport in las vegas.. I am happy to be going home. These conventions are exhausting and full of limos and drinking. We took clients our gambling and while in the limo one of our clients offered me champagne and as I declined he called me a freak.

vegas

still in vegas.. I want to go home..

Here

Here in vegas is like being in a prison. I am watching all these assholes drink their fill. There is something about being in a desert that makes one thirsty for alcohol. Tough town, but I have my big book. I will catch up on my peeps, hopefully tomorrow.

las vegas

I am heading to las vegas tomorrow, it's the city I hate with a passion. I guess I have had to many drunks there. I am seeing the little man (my boss) and I am asking for mo money. I hope he gives it to me, because I need some debt relief. I have been fighting with unions all day on my projects, so me es muy cansado. Thats a little spanish for the english impaired. I hope everyone is well. I will keep in touch while I am in the city of sin.

right path

Everything I have been doing has been on the right path. It has been amazing the things that are happening to me. I feel as though I have grown as a person and a man. I still have my twisted ways (per scott), but thats ok today. Sometimes this deal we do to remain sober takes time for the results or promises. But if you stay the course you will eventually see the results and for that I am grateful.

cinco de mayo

Yes, it is like a fourth of July for the mexican people. When I drank, I use to always pound tequila on this celebration day. Our neighborhood usually goes nuts with parties every 5 houses. I am inside and safe from the parties. Also I am playing golf with guys in the program tomorrow morning. Our tee off time is at 6:30 am, so a good night sleep would be a good idea. Be safe and Sober..

on the run

I have been running around today trying to get projects, bids, etc closed up. I have to get all this done today, because tonight my son has a baseball game. Rain is in the air, but this is socal, so it probably won't rain. I am looking forward to a great week end with my family. I hope all of you peeps (sober chic's term) have a great week end as well.

Sutree

Watch and learn, what a great site. I can watch videos of how to make origami's or learn about cloning cells. Great stuff and this site is FREE. link

not here

I feel like hiding or getting away tonight. Everything seems to make my head pound louder. I am just plain beat from making sure everything is done, dishes, baseball practice, paper work, bills, etc. You know, life gets hard sometimes by there is always tomorrow. It's the opportunity for a new day, how great is that?

what

I, no, we are on satan's list. Thats pretty creepy, however my beliefs may not be the same as yours, so practice your religion where it belongs, in a church.

I am feeling good today and I know why, because I am spending more time with the family. Yesterday we went to a park by the beach and out to dinner. I really need to do the family thing even though it is hard, because I grew in the house of hell (alcoholic house). The chain is broken today and at least my kids know you don't have to drink to deal with your fear.

dating

If you are thinking about dating you might need some practice. link

kids and pools

We had a friend of ours lose their little boy to the bottom of the pool. As it gets to be summer we need to keep a close eye out on our kids. It is a horrible feeling as a parent to know your child died in fear. I just pray for this family every day, because I know it would kill me if something happened to one of my boys.

I am in the office this week and out again the next two weeks to Las Vegas for convention land. yikes this town scares the hell out of me. mo mo meetings..