disappointment

My son hasn't been trying at baseball since his string of strikeouts. I don't know if disappointment is the right word, because I don't want him to fail or feel like a failure. He is making excuses to stay on the bench like his stomach hurts. Part of me feels like yelling at him and getting in his face. However this is how my father acted with the addition of punching me. The other half wants to comfort him and protect him. I would have kicked any parents ass tonight that my any comment about my son. My first reaction is to fight anyone around me, when I feel like I did tonight. Wow, that is how I use to act when I was drinking by always looking for a fight. The difference today is the anger goes away a lot quicker.