happy halloween

Show/Hide Navigation for some its everyday. For me it is a fun time seeing the kids happy. The ghouls in my head wont make it out this year Have a Safe Halloween.

God

Ha.. Pam your right were the hell has my mind been. I think it's typically in the trashy side of some insecure humor. However, life is a path and sometimes I zig zag back and forth never straying afar. I am happy to be in gods hands today.

happy meal

This is a happy meal I think will pass on. Today all the problems on one of my projects just got worse. I just have to laugh about the whole thing, because it's become a comedy of errors. I am damn sure not going to drink about it..

isolation

I have been working on my new company concepts by building a website. I have also been so drawn up in it that I have been isolating. I don't know what is wrong but my program doesn't seem to be what it use to. Lack of, is probably fitting in my case today. I just don't want to make an effort, maybe its boredom of my life. Things have been eating at me and I feel programed out. I hope this is just a funk and the green pasture will lay ahead.

project sux

am working on this development project and it looks like there is no way we are going to meet the delivery date. I am not drinking over it. No sports tomorrow so I sleep

insanity

Man during this whole fire ordeal I felt like drinking a few times. I thought the drinking desires had slowly diminished because of my time in the program. It takes something like this to totally get the thoughts of escaping back to in my mind. Wow, I need to pick up a meeting badly. I will make an effort to get to one tomorrow.

witch creek fire

When I woke up the sky was brown and the yard was filled with soot. This has been a bad fire. My oldest sons birthday was today and he was bummed. How ever he loved the 2 baseball gloves I got him.

san marcos fire

We are going to be headed to a hotel, no room at friends.

poway fire

This was what it was like on the way home from the airport. My flight was cancled and tonight we have evacuated.

Live San Diego Fire

Live feed http://livetaco.blogspot.com Holy shit the fire as been a bitch all day. The cars are packed and we will be out of here soon. I am sober thank god.

finally

Well I have hired my assistant and she can't start for two weeks. I almost hired a blond chick with big boobs. However my sponsor suggested against it as well as my wife. That tells you where the alcoholic mind goes, Hot chick + me = drinking. So I am glad that disaster didn't occur. Trying to interview 20 people as well as working your ass off is a difficult task. I hope by hiring someone to ease my load won't increase it in someway. I am off to NJ on Monday and returning Tuesday night. It will be one a quick meeting and then back home. I thank god and the program for my sobriety today.

out of control

Wow life has been all over the place. I am at a airport (phoenix) getting ready to board a flight back home. Still sober but running low on recovery juice. I need to spend time with the family this weekend however I need to pick up a couple meetings. Get this I have to leave for Newark on Monday.

halloween is coming

All this weekend the kids were talking about what they are going to be for halloween. I love this this time of year and when I was drinking it was just another daily celebration. I use to get pissed off when I would have to answer the door for the trick or treaters. I would have to come inside from the back yard to answer the door. The back yard was where my stash and coolers filled with beers were located. It was basically my heaven behind my house. I had 4 bottles of crown in 750 mils hidden in sprinkler's pump stations. Hell I also had 4 cooler buried in the ground with tops that had clued on dirt and sticks. I was stealth when I was drinking until everyone knew I was drunk. I changed the cooler' locations every couple of week.

Today I don't have to sorry about all that bullshit in my hesd

search

Wow trying to find the right assistant has it's problems. First off 70% of the applicants had 4 or more typo's. What the hell is that, what were these people thinking, spell check? Anyways I have it down to 6 and the interviews start on Monday and end on Tuesday. By then I shall have a assistant. I hope they make my life a little easier because I am feeling a little lost. Football, baseball and soccer games for the boys all day today. However we have the rain factor out there today, so please god let it rain.

resentments

Resentments are a bitch.

punkerotic

hiring an assistant

This whole hiring someone sux. I have been going through resumes with 4+ typos in the first paragraph. Also some of these people just don't get the idea of attaching their resume. They send it on the email itself. That to me is not professional. There is a good side to this because I have taken more power back from god. just kidding...

elevator ride

I hate elevators with a passion. If I didn't have to ride on a elevator the rest of my life it would be a great thing. interesting elevator link

meeting

I went to my meeting tonight and I felt a little older and wiser. We had a lot of new comers and I felt lucky that I had a few years under my belt. I remember those early sobriety days and what it took for me just not drink for a day. I had the fog in my head well past a year. I hated that feeling of not making sense in what I had to say. It was hard for me and I don't want to have to do it all again. It took a lot out me emotionally as phyically. I feel I just don't have another sober in me today.

 

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football

I had to get milk this morning for the boys, so this photo was fitting. I am taking the boys and their friends to play football. I told them I would yesterday and I have to keep my promise. That's part of the whole deal now sober, I keep my commitments.

mi casa

I am so glad to be home. However my back is killing me from the plane seating. 6 1/2 half hours is to long in those shitty seats. Well back on schedule for tomorrow, the boys have 6 games and I hope to god I can make it through all of the six. I saw my mom when I was in florida and she cried when I left. She said she is so proud of me and that makes me feel pretty good.

airport

I am at the airport waiting for my flight to board.. I am happy to get the hell at out of florida and go home to southern california. I had good meetings and now I get to hire my own assistant. Their job description will be to primarily keep me organized. That will be a task in itself. I can't wait to see my boy's.

still in Florida

I am leaving the land of humidity and bugs thank god. Its been way to hot muggy for me.I am beat from meeting after meeting.

hanging

Well I am at our annual meeting and it is all about getting fucked up every night. That is for everyone but me. The whole thing is getting old. Its like my life is a constant battle to stay sober. There seems to be no reprieve in sight. I need a break for a little while.