Friday, September 14, 2007

exit

This is a shitty deal, why do have I have to live with constant doom of the next drink? It seems to follow me around everywhere. I know when I crossed that line, however I just couldn't cut down on my drinking. It's was after that point it began to take over my life and now it waits for me to make one mistake. Step 1.

I am trying to prepare for this new deal early next week and I just need more guidance from god. I fear change when actually I should fear not changing.

8 comments:

Pam said...

actually you should not fear anything. technically speaking.

Scott said...

oohh great thought there at the end...

not changing is what got me in my alcoholic/addictive mess... I pretty much embrace, if not look forward to change these days. My life has been one constant evolution since getting sober and it can be scary but it's exciting as hell!!

Syd said...

Sounds like you might need to go back to Step Three. I don't live with any doom today, just in the day and liking it.

Tab said...

You sound like you are well in touch with yourself Lash..trust the process and yourself my friend.
xo

Rusty said...

Why do you always forget how awesome you are? Try not to be afraid of this new opportunity. It could be wonderful and exciting. Or it could really suck. Don't predict...let it happen. Good luck!

You don't need the drink: you have god and you have a program that works. Keep it simple, Lash. :-) And, remember that you really aren't alone.

Mary Christine said...

The constant doom of the next drink is better being around the next corner than in our guts... attacking us. All is well. Things will be as they should.

tkdjunkie said...

Many hugs, Lash ... They say that the alcohol is not going to jump off the shelf and force itself down your throat. But it's scary when your brain is wired to convince you it's "ok" to drink. That's why working with newcomers is so important. They are a constant reminder of where we were, and where we will end up if we drink again.

ebenezzer said...

Focus less on the past and what you might want and more on the future-what you do want and how to get there.