Monday, June 04, 2007

cansado

Well my son's last baseball game was tonight and they lost 5 to 2. He struck out and popped out and of course it was with his new bat. I felt bad for him because he wanted to hit the ball so bad. He will have to wait till winter ball to get another chance. All three will be playing winter baseball, but for now it will be soccer for the youngest two and football for the oldest.

Well the funeral is Thursday and I am really not looking forward to going. The emotional ride I have been on is exhausting. I need to do it for his kids and wife, they need our support so I will suck it up. I am a alcoholic and the things that make me feel uncomfortable are the things I need to do.

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9 comments:

Meg Moran said...

At least today we know how to suit up and show up. I used to flake on all of the hard things in life. I'm sorry this is hard Lash. My thoughts are with you.

Christine said...

I love the way you suit up and show up

Good for you!

I am sad for you too to have to go thru this

vicariousrising said...

I am so sorry that you and those you are close to have to deal with this. Don't forget to lean on other people in AA for support for yourself while you act as support for your friend's wife and kids.

{{{Lash}}}

jrhighpeteacher said...

No one looks forward to burying another one who didn't make it. I'm sorry for your loss, but you go, and you be a shining example that the program does actually work.

I had a crying boy last night too...He hit a ball to right field but didn't run fast enough to first. I don't know what he was thinking, poor kid.

ScOuT said...

I join the ranks of those of us who extend our sympathies to you and this man's family, Lash. And I, too, am glad you are able to show up. This family does, in fact, need you.
You are a most excellent man.
Peace and LOVE,
Scout

Mary Christine said...

Thanks for being a stand up sober guy Lash. You really make a difference to a lot of people.
(and thanks for teaching me what cansado means.)

Trudging said...

Three kids in sports wow! Sam played one season of T-ball and I thought that was a lot. My prayers are with you at that funeral

lushgurl said...

Yes it is sad to say good bye, I am glad though that you are able to do the tough stuff. I am sure just having you be there for your friends' wife and children will mean so much to all.
HUGS for YOU!

recoveryroad said...

Kind of what Meg said up at the top there.

You are the hand of AA...

I'll be thinking of you and your friends tomorrow.

All the best, matey.