Near the Downward Spiral

I found out that my liver enzymes were elevated 3 years prior to becoming sober. I told myself I was going to cut back, and after the first 6 pack then 12 pack, the cutting back turned from today to tomorrow, than next week. I then became convinced that I was going to die, so I might as well enjoy myself by drinking. I was dying alright, that is dying inside. The good thing is the liver may heal and maybe I will to.