10 Things You Don't Need

I damn sure don't need any of these 10 things. -Smoking baby -Silk Marajuna Plants -Custom Painting of You as Mona Lisa -......

Qumana Sucks

If you can't view the post below than you know Qumana sucks. This program seems to operate ok on the desk top, however anything beyond is the land of bugs.

I Feel Real

The first year I didn't always do the program the right way. However what I did do right was not to take a drink. We have to  adapt to our life as sober. We have to learn to live life on life's terms. This means you have to do what ever is necessary to stay on the program of Alcoholic's Anonymous. 

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2 Years TODAY

Man, I have a lot of gratitude today for God, Alcoholics Anonymous and My Sponsor. I never thought I could make it this long, but today I am 2 years and my life is so much better. Today I am part of the solution and not the problem. My wife and kids whom I thought I had lost are today by my side. How did I do it? I just didn't fucking drink one day at a time. I did the 90 meetings in ninety days. I went to meetings and got commitments. I talked with my sponsor everyday and called other alcoholic's. I did what was asked of me from my sponsor. I kept it simple and learned to laugh at myself. Today I like who I am. Thanks....

Alien vs The Virgin of Guadalupe

Flickr user Baikinange has this neat pic of a Mexican man’s ex voto(a votive offering to a diety, given for the fulfillment of a wish) to the Virgin of Guadalupe, for saving him from alien abduction.

What In The Fuck are you looking at?

I use to have the attitude of fuck them when people use to look at me when I was drinking. Do you want a part of me, I will fuck you up, I can drink you under the table any day etc. I use to really believe that people wanted to be like me a big and tough drinker. I expect when looking back at it now they probaly said, I hope that guy will be ok, It is sad to him that way, I hope the kids are ok. I don't ever want to be that drunk person again, however I only have today.

Manual for a Compact

Step 2

Every day is a day when we must carry the vision of God's will into all of our activities. Alcoholics Anonymous, page 85 The Daily Reprieve. For me, when I was drinking I was mad at everything that went against my drinking including going to church and spending time with my family were the ones that loved me and they were the ones that simply got in my way. They were the ones that tried to get me to look at myself, however the person in the mirror wasn't me it was alcohol. I didn't have room for anything or anyone else in my life, but alcohol. Today I have room for god and family in my life and anyone else who takes the time to get to know me. Today the obsession doesn't have the power god does.

Unrealistic Expectation

We all have them, but sometimes they cause us to drink.

My Resentments

Every time I end up with a resentment, I usually act like a baby. Wow, how many resentments do I really have???

Too Mas Meetings

For me too many meetings means less time I spend being a husband and father. Its a program that teaches us to grow up and be responsible. To become a member in society,and to face our fears. I have heard a lot of people say that their family is their sober friends. They attend meeting 24/7 and when you call them, the spouse says they are with AA friends or at a meeting in a sad voice. The spouses and children need to be part of our sober foundation. They are part of our recovery and if neglected than our program will become neglected.

Sex Food

Out of Order

This was my story, when I was drinking I didn't want anyone to get in my way. I would like to drink with others in the beginning and by myself towards the end. I just didn't really need anyone except my bottle.

Condom Device

Site is in Russian, but it seems to be unmistakable. This is a device for putting on a condom. Without getting sticky fingers from touching neither the condom nor the penis in question. It is very similar to what they use at the hospital for circumcisions.

What Number

I wasn't sure who to call today, because I felt a little down from the whole job gig. I was "thinking", which is most of my problem. However I was thinking that people where trying to avoid me, because of fearing that they to may get bad juju. That is how my mind works and if I don't give it to my higher power it will sit in my head. That is where a lot of misinformation happens and resentments build quickly.

Gas Prices

What is going on with gas pricing. Instead of looking for one job I have to get a 2nd job, just to pay for the fuel costs to the first job. All I know is GW is getting rich out of the deal. I would like to take $42.00 of gas and pump it up his ass. That's what I paid today to fill my tank..

It could be worse

After I woke up this morning I didn't get sick. I ended up taking my sons to their soccer games. No matter how much my ass feels like falling off I just can't drink. I have to do this on a daily basis. I accomplished it today by waking up praying to the god of my choice. I thanked him to his grace followed by my daily reprieve. I have tough times ahead, but they will just get worse by drinking. Today I am ok with not drinking just for today.

Step Study

I love going to step study when we are on step one. Step one is the only step you need to do perfect. I started out as a weekend drinker and I did that well for awhile. Then Monday Night Football came and added another day of drinking. I began drinking during the 4 final days by celebrating for things I accomplished and then for things I that I didn't accomplish. The reasons and excuses became so many that I ended up just drinking everyday to survive. I couldn't make it with out alcohol in me for all the right reasons it cured my sweating, shaking, fears, self-esteem, loneliness,etc. That lasted for too long and I began to start dying physically and spiritually. The cure became my destructor and I knew it, but I just couldn't seem to stop drinking. I finally ended up in a long tail spin destroying everything I came in touch with. The day it ended I couldn't get down the first drink at 5:30 am, because my hands where shaking to much. That day I ended up in detox and stayed for 4 days. I then went into a 28 1/2 day program that was attached to detox. My wife had signed my admittance papers to the rehab center. I had signed my rights away in detox. It was there I began to learn how unmanageable my life was and that I am powerless over alcohol. Oh yeah, I am an alcoholic.

Head Up Others Asses

I was getting a little irritated with everyone I work with today, because it is the incompetence that have driven us into this situation, however mainly the midget. I remembered finally to stay on my side of the street and focus on what I needed to get done. I felt a lot better after I prayed and call another alcoholic. I need to keep what I am grateful for close by, so that I don't forget.

For What it's Worth

“Your Heavenly Father will never let you down!” - Dr. Bob, The Doctor’s Nightmare, Alcoholics Anonymous, page 181 “For God has said, ‘I will never fail you. I will never forsake you.’” - Hebrews 13:5

Is it Worth Running in the Rain?

It seems that as soon as rain starts to fall, people speed up their pace. There could be many reasons for this but one is the expectation that by running - or at least walking faster - they will arrive drier at their destination. The physics needed to analyze this presumption covers many topics from your introductory course: kinematics, relative velocity, terminal velocity, flux and vector components to name a few. Don't Get Wet

Life on Lifes Terms

A midget has thrown a boulder on my world and I am still pissed off. I have prayed about him cutting my salary and insurance, however I am still angry. Having resentments are a reason for drinking, however for me it won't be today. I get to take my 9 year old son to soccer practice. blackberry post eagency

Pig Pod PDA

* A Moleskine hack. * An extreme Moleskine hack. * A simplified GTD system (What system? See our GTD Introduction), with relatively little actual organising. May be useful if you fancy Doing GTD Without Doing GTD. * A complete personal management system for those who’s needs aren’t too complicated. * A rather over-the-top system for dealing with just the capturing and processing end of GTD. pig pod 43 folders

Open Door

I believe the door will open for me soon. I have a stronger belief in my higher power than a year ago as well as stronger program in AA and for that I am grateful. If I had to look for a job a year ago I don't think I would be able to deal with the fear. Today I am strong and 15 days from 2 years of sobriety. My wife and kids are surrounding me with support and love. Who would have thought..

What The Fuck

My boss cut my salary in half and dissolved our company insurance. We were just getting by with my full salary. This was not expected and he said it was effective immediately. You can't support a family on half of my salary. I have been working on updating my resume, and contacting all the people that can help. My sponsor asked me if I felt like drinking and I said yes, however the urge didn't last long. This is the result of God and Alcohlolics Anonymous. Sometimes the winds of life change directions and we have to make adjustments in order to fill our sails again.......

Happy Joyous and Free

A dream or the next drink.

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Drunk Talk

I don't do the whole drunk talk lingo unless I am exhausted. When I am tired my wife things I have been out at a local bar. I also don't yell at her and try to spin everything as her fault. I am just so mellow when I am tired and people assume I had been hitting the bowl. All that drunk talk is your tired, lonely, hungry, or stuck in your head.

Personal DNA

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Phone List

Some days I wish someone would call me and ask how I am doing. The waiting seems to push me further into isolation. There are times when I don't want to make the effort, because I feel so tired. When I was drinking I was in permanent isolation, because I didn't need or want anyone. Now that I am sober it has become a need, which I can only fill if I pick up the phone.

Ok So I am a Pig

What are you?

Pocket Mod

The PocketMod is a new way to keep yourself organized. Lets face it, PDAs are too expensive and cumbersome, and organizers are bulky and hard to carry around. Nothing beats a folded up piece of paper. That is until now. With the PocketMod, you can carry around the days notes, keep them organized in any way you wish, then easily transfer the notes to your PDA, spreadsheet, or planner. pocket-mod

Keys to catching the brain rain:

-set aside 10 minutes, each and every day -have pen and paper handy -allow yourself the freedom to think crazy thoughts -don’t worry if nothing really productive springs to mind right away -periodically scan over your notes from these sessions as things may pop into your mind after they have “marinated” for a while -if no ideas pop into your head pick a fun topic and doodle a bit -use word association to get things rolling if you feel stuck e.g. thinking -> thoughts -> mind -> brainstorm -> brain rain Though this approach may not seem original, putting time in your life for original thought (not prompted by daily needs, TV, or work) really is unique. I know it sounds silly and I know it sounds corny but don’t run around on autopilot all the time and then bemoan that fact that you have no “good” ideas. The truth is ideas themselves are neither good nor bad. But thinking is certainly good and not thinking is absolutely bad. Medium Pimping

Digital Plants

Geeks.com is selling the world’s first digital “e-plant”. What makes this a digital plant? This bean plant sprouts with binary “01001011″ and “@” characters on its leaves. Not very exciting, but if you have an extra $3.99 to spare, this plant might be something cool for your living room. “With the Genica e-plant, the leaves are fractal enabled and the stem comes with built-in feature creep. Buy multiple units and align them in series or parallel in order to activate the e-plants version of hyper-threading.” [Source]

Cool message

Tonight I will be busy___________ Send message or play message. Need to get out more

Heroin Overdose

This guy who went to the same rehab center that I did, overdosed on heroin. We didn't communicate much after rehab, however his norme brother called me to let me know. I really wasn't shocked, because he could never keep a sponsor or higher power for long. I felt like I should have called him more after I got out, but I was scared and didn't want go back to drinking. I felt like I needed to get this program and strengthen my spirituality before I could help others. I am sober today and wished I called him.

What is Maghien

Didier Maghe is a sculptor and painter. These odd creatures have their penises on their heads (dickheads) and are called "Maghiens". Didier Maghe

Bush, Hu Break No New Ground on Trade

WASHINGTON - President Bush and Chinese President Hu Jintao agreed to cooperate more closely on trade and nuclear tensions over Iran and North Korea but failed to break new ground Thursday toward resolving a host of differences. Their meeting was marred by a protest. The protestors were chanting for more U.S. natural resouces and more free technolgy. WAIT HOLD ON I THOUGHT GW (former alcoholic) DIDN'T DRINK.. NOW I KNOW WHY OUR ECONOMY SUCKS

Look Who is Doing The Sobriety Walk

Is it safe to cross the street with Dave?

Is that my dog?

Inflatable Doll

A guy goes in a store and asks for an Inflatable doll. Guy behind the counter says, "Male or female?" Customer says, "Female" Counter guy asks, "Black or white?" Customer says, "White" Counter guy asks, "Christian or Muslim?" Customer says, "What does religion have to do with it?" Counter guy says, "The Muslim blows itself up." post: ty rex

Website

I have started another site to help spread the word on sustainable living. Urban Green I do research on this topic because it is becoming a large part of how we do business.

Bible Study

Bible study has given me the opportunity to read a book for an hour a week, which would not be opened otherwise. I am working to strengthen my relationship with god and the person who is holding up the progress is me. I like to grab the controls away from time to time and the same bad results always happen. The bible study helps keep the controls out of my hands and allows my life to move towards being centered. The center is a daily struggle for me and most of the time I am either at the bottom or the top. Finally it is just someone's house, where you can feel his presence.

Sober Profits or Sober Program

I am not singling anyone for potentially making money by blogging the idea has crossed my mind like many other bloggers. I really don't know the answer to this, because Bill and Bob are dead. Having spoke with many people in the program the idea of advertising on blog that mentions AA seems to be a fine line. Majority of the people seem to be ok with the idea, however the hardcore crowd aren't so understanding. Examples of Sponsored Tags: Conquer Alcoholism. Quit Drinking Easily Secret Quit Techniques That Work Even if Everything Else Failed. Quit Drinking Quickly - Easily - Today - Forever. www.nomoreaddiction.com Drug and Alcohol Rehab Treatment Program Free information, resources and links to drug and alcohol abuse treatment centers, drug abuse and alcohol rehab options and centers. www.globalonlinesvcs.com Sobriety Find Deals on sobriety and other Apparel at DealTime. Choose from millions of deals. Save time and money every time you shop. www.dealtime.com I posted this to hopefully answer a question that has been bothering me.

Lack of

Word of the Day for Saturday, April 15, 2006 land of Nod, noun: sleep We were fast going off to the land of Nod, when - bang, bang, bang - on the scuttle, and "All hands, reef topsails, ahoy!" started us out of our berths. -- Richard Henry Dana Jr., Two Years Before The Mast For the jet-lagged insomniac, here are a few suggestions of what to do in Manhattan once the last bar has chucked you out and the land of nod seems further away than the night bus to Camberwell. -- William Hide, "The night shift", The Guardian, February 24, 2001

Reality Sucks Sometimes

Easter

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Feel Like Fighting

Wow I feel much better!

How to make a plastic bag bra

If you are the thrifty, crafty, type why not follow these simple instructions and create your own bra from a plastic bag? This bra can be used for men as part of a party costume for instance. You will need scissors, sticky tape and some stuffing. The plastic bag, ideally, will be similar in size to one found at any supermarket. Make sure it is reasonably flexible and comes fitted with handles. If you can find one featuring interesting colors or patterns, so much the better. You can even paint a plain one. Please note that standard white plastic bags can be a little 'see-through', so it will pay to check your appearance in a mirror before venturing outdoors. Make sure you keep the plastic bags out of the reach of small children. Follow these instructions.

Google This

Web: Google this! 1- Go to Google 2- Type in the word "Failure" 3- Instead of clicking "Google Search," click "I'm Feeling Lucky." 4- Spread the word ...

Control

I don't need to conrol others posted on HNT

Dallas Meeting

Wow this city has sobriety. I went to a meeting near downtown. The meeting was a step study and was one of the best meetings I have attended. There was this woman who spoke at the podium and went through each step and what it had meant to her. We had similarities in how we lived our lives and how we delayed on the steps. She made sense in my avoidance to to move on through the steps and helped clear some of the problems. I thanked her after the meeting for giving me some insight on the steps. One of the things she said is that "I am either filled with god or filled with alcohol" which I liked and haven't heard before. JJ. There is only a few meetings I have been to that allows smoking in the meeting and Dallas and Denver are the tops. The main differences from each city is in the format; the clapping, greeting of the newcomers and the visitors during the meeting. Some meetings don't ask who are the newcomers or visitors. The rest of the format stays pretty close.

Close Call

Yesterday I met with a client and found out we lost the 3rd big job. That was 3 strikes for me I was out. I felt like fighting anyone that would challenge me. I also felt devastated and quickly casted the blame on myself and god. I felt like having a drink, but not as a answer to the problem only a relief. I spoke with my sponsor and he pointed out it was not my fault. I felt a lot of the pressure was taken off. I had to fly into Dallas and prayed alot at the airport. On the plane this guy sat next to me and I could tell he was in the program with the choice of words he used. I felt it was god's way of telling me that it was alright. I didn't get to my hotel room till real late and I was exhausted. I got up this morning at 6:30am to prepare for my meeting at 8:00 am. It was a really good meeting and I was feeling better and my 11:30am lunch presentation went ok. I was ok, and still sober and with a god in my life.

Boulder AA

Alcoholism is alive and active in every city I go. Everyone has the same story in a general way, we all are trying to stay sober. It was a pretty good meeting there was about 22 people. We all shared about the third step "How we have come to know a power greater than ourselves". It wasn't hard for me, because I just couldn't be god nor could alcohol anymore. I was tired of trying over and over again of mismanaging my life. There was no progress what so ever, just the fact that the little boy was growing older. I turn my life over to god on a daily basis only and that seems to work for me.

HP Isolation Test

When I was driven to my knees by alcohol, I was made ready to ask for the gift of faith. And all was changed. Never again, my pains and problems notwithstanding, would I experience my former desolation. I saw the universe to be lighted by God's love; I was alone no more." letter written by Bill W., 1962 AS BILL SEES IT, page 51

Denver Dallas

I just got to my hotel in Boulder and I am tired. I was amazing that I didn't have a desire to drink on the plane because everyone around me was drinking beer and mixed drinks. I use to order 3 to 4 everytime the flight attendant would ask do you want a drink. I basically got sick of waiting for them to get back for the next round. This guy across from me ordered 3 beers at on time. I just started laughing because that was me. I will save a seat for him. Once at the hotel I did have a slight desire to have just one, A gin and tonic double. But as I have learned from the past it will not end at just one. So I walked past the sports bar and up room. I will go to bed today having been sober.

Plug-In

My kids are the cause of our $490.00 electric bill. Lights left on, gamecube left on, the two computers left on, and play station left on I can't take it anymore. The neighbors might as well plug into my outdoor outlets and use our electricity as well. I need to get a handle on this other wise I will move my family to a clay adobe hut with no electricity or running water. Idea, I will get a timer that shuts off the electricity to specific outlets at certain times that should solve the problem. What's bizarre is we don't have A/C or a pool and mostly gas appliances.

Dinner

I just felt like eating by myself tonight. Everyone was talking and a quiet dinner wasn't happening. When I was a kid we never spoke at the dinner table. We simply just were not allowed. Now it seems like it is a race to get done, so my kids can go back to what they were doing playing computer games, playstation, game cube, x box, tv or reading a book. I didn't care if they were hanging up side down from the ceiling when I was drinking. The problem is I had no rules when I was drinking only threats. Since I am sober now, I thought I could just start fresh with new rules or my laws. It didn't work just like only drinking a couple beers. I need to take things slow and gain back the trust and respect from my kids and wife.

Movie

I went to a dinner and movie with my wife last night. We have working hard on trying to build our marriage back from the destruction of alcoholism. I expected it to have been way easier than what I am going through now. I owe it to my kids, wife and myself to try my best now sober. To be a part of instead of being almost all of the problem. It is a time to nourish life and spirituality.

Online Shopping

I have often wondered how many people get fucked when they purchase something online. Click on this link and select a product. move the mouse posted also on HNT

Postheimers

Ughhhhh...ughhhh two fingers. This is pathetic..

Step Work

This guy in the program sent me this photo. It is of the guy and his sponsor working on the 4th step.Which one is the clown?

Isolation

This is what my room looks like when I feel Isolated. Isolation is dangerous for an alcoholic because that is when we drank. The fear and self demoralization flood gates are left open. I don't want to be here, but it is familiar.

Wheel of Life

When life is busy, or all your energy is focused on a special project, it’s all too easy to find yourself “off balance”, not paying enough attention to important areas of your life. While you need to have drive and focus if you're going to get things done, taking this too far can lead to frustration and intense stress. That’s when it’s time to take a “helicopter view” of your life, so that you can bring things back into balance. This is where the Wheel of Life (or Life Wheel) can help. Commonly used by professional life coaches, it helps you consider each area of your life in turn and assess what’s off balance. And so, it helps you identify areas that need more attention. mind tools