Step Study

We did step 8 tonight and I really felt a stronger urge to complete the 4th step. I am sitting on things that are a struggle for me. The ability to release myself from the punishment that I have created seems to be more difficult than if it was given by someone else. The key is that I have given these things more power than I have given god or myself. If I really try to break it down all the parts are connected to one thing fear. Fear is one reason I drank. I am going to be making more of an effort to get the ball rolling again.