Last Night Meeting

I made a complete ass out of myself last night at the meeting. I got up to speak and there was nothing coming to my head. I spoke of bullshit like I hated the Dale class and I went to my kids soccer game bla bla bla. Nothing of the program and I sound like a fearful child or worse yet a mindless airhead. Its the result of everyone talking about their fathers and how wonderful the relationship is now. Not me